I Wish Kinky Sex Ed Wasn't So Stigmatized Even Among Left-leaning "sex Positive" Circles. Everyone's

Teorema (1968) dir. Pier Paolo Pasolini

19 March, 1937 Letters to Véra by Vladimir Nabokov

oc asks: not-so-nice edition

alone: How does your OC deal with loneliness? Have they ever been completely alone before? How do they act when there's no one around to see them?

betrayal: Has your OC ever been betrayed by someone they thought they could trust? Has your OC ever betrayed someone who trusted them?

bound: Has your OC ever been imprisoned or captured? What happened? How did they get out? Did the experience leave any scars?

break: What would cause your OC to break down completely? What do they look like when that happens? Has anyone ever seen them at their lowest?

desire: What's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

failure: What's your OC's greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?

fear: What is your OC's greatest fear? What do they do when confronted with it? Are they open with their fear, or do they hide it away?

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

ghost: Who or what haunts your OC? What happened? How do they live with their ghosts?

guilt: What is your OC guilty about? How do they handle their guilt? Do they try to avoid guilt, or do they accept it?

hate: What does your OC hate? Why? How do they act towards the object of their hatred?

heartbreak: Have they ever had a relationship that ended badly? Experienced some other kind of heartbreak? What happened?

hide: What does your OC hide? Why do they hide it?

hunt: Who or what is your OC hunted by? A person, a feeling, a past mistake? Is your OC able to let their guard down, or are they constantly alert?

mask: Does your OC wear a mask, literally or figuratively? What goes on beneath it? Is there anyone in their life who gets to see who they are under the mask?

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

mistake: What's the worst mistake your OC ever made? What led to them making it? Have they been able to fix it? How have they moved on?

monster: Is your OC monstrous in any way? Is there something that makes them monstrous? Are they aware of their own monstrosity? Do they accept it or reject it?

nightmare: What does your OC have nightmares about? How do they deal with their nightmares? Do they tell people, or keep it to themself?

pain: What's the worst pain your OC has ever felt? Do they have a high pain tolerance?

secret: What's one secret your OC never wants anyone to know about them?

skin: How comfortable is your OC in their skin? Do they grapple with anything that lives inside them—a beast, a curse, a failure, a monster? How do they face the smallest, weakest, most horrible version of themself? Are they able to acknowledge it at all?

torture: Has your OC ever been tortured? Would your OC ever torture someone else?

wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?

I have the weirdest thoughts sometimes about media, for instance: "That man is a fag who was alive in the 70s, he would not be drinking Orange Juice"

What people think sociopathy is:

- manipulative

- homicidal

- overall a bad person

- crazy

- lacks emotions

What sociopathy really is:

- constant overwhelming boredom and understimulation, feeling of void, what often leads to performing harmful or stupid behaviors on others or self

- inability to regulate emotions properly which leads to impulsive mood swings

- often paranoia

- putting yourself at constant risk and danger to feel anything

- disgusting intrusive thoughts running through your head 24/7

- inability to manage a healthy relationship

- returning desire to cut off all the people who care about you (often in a harmful way)

- struggles to understand why people care and inability to return the same

- often SH

- inability to adapt and function in society due to fanatical nonconformism

- actual homicidal thoughts or tendencies

- depending on complexicity of the disorder trauma-based psychotic episodes may occur, these may trigger fatal self-destructive/destructive behaviors

- making impulsive decisions (large part of which turn out to be bad)

- actual manipulative behaviors often being a result of fear of loosing control over your life

- being prone to falling into addictions

- easily triggered aggression (verbal or physical)

- selective to none interest in understanding emotions and pain of other people/animals

- often depression

- meltdowns that can last for days or weeks

- subconscious isolation

- overly materialistic or trade-like understanding of any relationship, benefit oriented mindset

- feeling of being tired and disgustingly sick of everything and everyone, indifference and ignorance being a result of years of own suffering

- can be but not necessairly an entirely bad person, you don't choose to have a certain mental illness but you do choose to be a piece of shit or not.

ASPD as sociopathy is a spectrum and a complex trauma based disorder that varies depending on the individual but most importantly causes a lot of struggles and a lot of pain to the person experiencing it. It incredibly pisses me off how misunderstood and misinterpreted that disorder is, so here is a yap from someone who is actually diagnosed with it.

I found photos of those Pallas Cat kittens born this year and bye I'm deceased

self-care phrases to boost your confidence

this shit ain't nothin to me man

I'll fucking kill you

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Khreshchatyk at night, Kiev (Kyiv), Ukrainian SSR, 1979 (photo by Mykola Kozlovskyi)