Day 11/14, 10th September, 2023 – Sunday

Day 9/20, 29th September, 2023 – Friday

Hello!!! Alright, so today wasn't as bad as yesterday was. Mostly since I had class again. The classes may not follow the same syllabus as exactly what we do in school, but it helps me streamline my day, so that's good. Either way, I had chemistry and botany. Botany was first, and we continued our chapter of morphology in flowering plants. I nearly slept because I was so bored (plus I was tired since we'd been out the whole day – first for PTM and then this other place for some other work). In chemistry, however, I was wide awake. We started our new chapter, Equillibrium. It's gonna be tough, but hopefully I do well in it.

Day 15/20, 5th October, 2023 – Thursday

I finished my Chemistry and Hindi tests today, gosh. They both definitely went better than my UT1. I don't have any school exams until Monday, but I have to prepare somewhat for my test in my tuition class tomorrow. Can't really seem to catch a break right now, but oh well. 

So. I had an academic awakening today. My dad and I were looking for my old end of term transcripts so that I can send them in for applications, and I genuinely remember thinking that my grades have been horrible since the 8th grade because of lockdown and stuff- but I was SO wrong. Like I could not have been more wrong than this. I thought that because I was messing up maths at the time and getting 3 and 4 out of 7 (ib myp) that all my grades were similar. BUT THEY WEREN'T???????????????? BRO I WAS CONSISTENTLY GETTING 6'S AND 7'S IN ALL MY OTHER SUBJECTS EXCEPT MATHS, OCCASIONALLY PHYSICS, AND LANGUAGE. YOU'RE TELLING ME I'M NOT ACTUALLY STUPID???? AND IT ISN'T JUST LIKE 8TH GRADE OR SOMETHING- I'VE BEEN GETTING SIMILAR SCORES CONSISTENTLY SINCE THE 7TH GRADE ONWARDS, MY TRANSCRIPTS FOR 9TH ARE ACTUALLY WONDERFUL, AND MY 10TH TERM ONE REPORT IS ALSO QUITE PHENOMENAL (I EVEN GOT A 7 IN PHYSICS THEN WTF, THE ONLY LOW SCORE I GOT WAS IN MATHS AND THAT WAS A 4, THE ONLY 4 I GOT). EVERYTHING CLEARLY WENT DOWNHILL SOMEWHERE THOUGH, BECAUSE MY TERM TWO TRANSCRIPT FOR 10TH GRADE HAS MY GRADES DROPPING (THE SCIENCES ALL DROPPED DOWN TO 5 AND THEN GOT PROGRESSIVELY WORSE IN MY PREBOARDS). THE WORST PART IS THAT I CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHY MY SCORES STARTED DROPPING THEN. LIKE IT WASN'T BOYS, I LIKED A BOY THEN TOO, BUT IT DIDN'T AFFECT MY SCORES. IT WASN'T SOCIAL MEDIA OR SCREENTIME OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT BECAUSE I HAD NO SOCIAL MEDIA THEN AND I WAS STILL CONSTANTLY TEXTING MY FRIENDS ALL THE TIME AND I KNEW HOW TO BYPASS ALL THE PARENTAL CONTROLS AND I WAS STILL SUPER OBSESSED WITH WHATEVER FANDOM I WAS IN???? I actually feel like my ocd started getting worse around that time and I also think that's when I started altering my sleep schedule and staying up way later than I usually would. So, in order to return to my former academic little self, I'm going to try and speak to my school counsellor about my ocd and try and fix my sleep schedule. If a younger me can do it so well and consistently, why can't older, present me? If a younger me could learn with such zeal and passion and reflect it in her scores, what's to say i can't do the same thing now too?

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"Black holes ain't as black as they are painted. They are not the eternal prisons they were once thought. Things can get out of a black hole both on the outside and possibly to another universe. So if you feel are are in a black hole don't give up – there's a way out."

– Stephen Hawking

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Day 4/14, 3rd September, 2023 – Sunday

Ok, so I don't have a picture for today either, but I worked again!!! I worked on my Chem Lab Report a little bit, since the due date looms closer. Along with this, I did some physics, motion in a plane, from a book of mine. Got emotional over getting a problem wrong, but alas, that's the learning process (for me, at least).

HAPPY HALLOWEEN :DD

Day 10/14, 9th September, 2023 – Saturday

Alright, I'm posting late again, so this is a bit vague, since I only vaguely remember what I did. Essentially, I practiced Logarithms for my Maths test on Monday. That was about it (unfortunately, today wasn't a very good day either).

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