I’m Sure He’s Just Sleeping.

Haven't postes something in a while, so here's a picture of my beloved dog that i would fight god and hell for:

Her name is Kaya, she's eight alredy, and i love ver more than i love myself. And yes, she sleeps with her mouth open, which I find cute and prettiely silly.

Me reading: Helient, Ilene, Lady of the lake- LADY OF THE LAKE?! GAWAIN SLEPT WITH LANCELOT'S MOM?!?

is there a list of all the women gawain had been with?

Aislyn (see Ragnelle)

Aleta (Prince Valiant (1954))

Amie (Beaudous by Robert de Blois)

Amurfina (The Crown by Heinrich von dem Türlin)

Antikonie (Parzival by Wolfram von Eschenbach)

Arcade/Ettarde (Post-Vulgate/Le Morte d’Arthur by Sir Thomas Malory)

Beauté (Gilglois)

Bertilak, Lady (Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, Arthur Rex by Thomas Berger)

Blanchadine (Floriant et Florete)

Blanchemal the Fay (Le Bel Inconnu)

Bloiesine (4th Perceval Continuation)

Carlisle, Daughter of (The Carle of Carlisle)

Carlisle, Lady (The Carle of Carlisle)

Elaine of Astolat (The Legend of King Arthur (1979))

Elidan (Hawk of May by Gillian Bradshaw)

Emma (see Ragnelle)

Enid the Faultless (Lanzelet by Ulrich von Zatzikhoven)

Essel (The Green Knight (2021))

Florée (Le Livre d'Artus)

Florie of Syria (Wigalois by Wirnt von Grafenberg)

Gay Maiden (Pulzella Gaia)

Guilorete of Lis (1st Perceval Continuation, Perceval (1978))

Gwendolen (The Masque of Gwendolen by Reginald Heber)

Halaés (Le Livre d'Artus)

Helient of North Wales (Vulgate)

Ilene (Prince Valiant (1954))

Lady of the Lake (Arthur Rex by Thomas Berger)

Linet (Gawain and the Green Knight (1973), Sword of the Valiant (1984))

Lorie of Roche Florie (The Marvels of Rigomer)

Luned/Lunette (The Lady of the Well, Yvain, Ywain, Iwein, Íven)

Marjorie (Gawain and Marjorie)

Morgana (Excalibur (1981))

Olwen (Arthur the Bear of Britain by Edward Frankland)

Orgeluse the Haughty (Parzival by Wolfram von Eschenbach)

Ragnelle (Loathly Lady Master Post)

Raquel (see Ragnelle)

Risa (see Ragnelle)

Risa (Guinevere by Sharan Newman)

Rosalie (The Mantel)

Schartine of China (Gabein)

Tanrée (2nd Perceval Continuation)

Venelas (Le Mantel Mautaillié)

Ydain (The Lancelot Compilation)

Ysabele (Roman Van Walewein)

Sources supplemented by The Arthurian Name Dictionary by Christopher W. Bruce, The Arthurian Handbook by Norris J. Lacy and Geoffrey Ashe, and my own knowledge. If there's a lady I missed, don't hesitate to say so, and I'll add her!

At this point I'm just using my tumblr as a personal diary when I have nothing to post.

Playing Uno during school break with friends (this was in the morning, I just didn't remember to post earlier)

Note: Everyone was comfortable with me posting the photo and I am taking it down, so I'm not in the photo.

Headcanon that Isaac has chronic pain from his fucked up childhood, but doesn't know it because he was usually injured enough to chalk the constant ache in his joints up to being crammed in a freezer long after puberty made him too tall to fit (which is partially true).

The bite isn't actually a cure, it just boosts the healing factor of bitten wolves so high that they appear cured, which is why Erica has a seizure when the kanima scratches her in the library; she still has epilepsy. Derek isn't lying when he tells them it will fix them, he just doesn't know he's wrong. It's not supposed to cure Isaac's claustrophobia or PTSD, but something like fibromyalgia is a neurological disorder, which is what epilepsy is.

Think about the ice bath scenes. When Isaac gets in the ice bath to remember when Erica and Boyd are, it isn't even supposed to be a method that can kill him, but it still makes him out of commission when Scott and Derek break into the bank. Later, when Scott, Stiles, and Allison sacrifice themselves to find their parents, the ice bath solution is not only more dangerous, but they stay in the water for 16 hours, far longer than Isaac did, and they still have the ability to jump straight into action finding the Nemeton. Sure, Scott is essentially already a True Alpha, but Stiles and Allison? Just humans. So why was it so hard for Isaac to recover?

I think it's because the ice bath put Isaac so close to the edge that his healing factor slowed (the claustrophobia of being underwater coupled with taking a kid who used to get locked in a freezer and asking him to voluntarily get into a freezing cold metal tub to access painful memories, all of which is before the actual risk of the ritual that Deaton doesn't even want to describe to him) and it brought all that latent chronic pain to the surface. If you have chronic pain, you know how much more it hurts when you're freezing cold. Even when he meets them to look for Boyd and Cora, he shows up wearing the scarf and a coat because he's still not 100%.

When Isaac gets electrocuted and takes ages to heal from the burns in the hospital in 3B, Scott tries to take his pain and is startled by how much pain Isaac is in. In that scene, Isaac's wolf healing is basically working overtime just to keep him alive, so the pain from the burns (internal and external) isn't the only thing Scott finds.

people who write fics. how do you feel about comments on super old ones you wrote like 2+ years ago

HOW TO WRITE A CHARACTER WHO IS IN PAIN

first thing you might want to consider: is the pain mental or physical?

if it’s physical, what type of pain is it causing? — sharp pain, white-hot pain, acute pain, dull ache, throbbing pain, chronic pain, neuropathic pain (typically caused by nerve damage), etc

if it’s mental, what is the reason your character is in pain? — grief, heartbreak, betrayal, anger, hopelessness, fear and anxiety, etc

because your character will react differently to different types of pain

PHYSICAL PAIN

sharp and white-hot pain may cause a character to grit their teeth, scream, moan, twist their body. their skin may appear pale, eyes red-rimmed and sunken with layers of sweat covering their forehead. they may have tears in their eyes (and the tears may feel hot), but they don’t necessarily have to always be crying.

acute pain may be similar to sharp and white-hot pain; acute pain is sudden and urgent and often comes without a warning, so your character may experience a hitched breathing where they suddenly stop what they’re doing and clench their hand at the spot where it hurts with widened eyes and open mouth (like they’re gasping for air).

dull ache and throbbing pain can result in your character wanting to lay down and close their eyes. if it’s a headache, they may ask for the lights to be turned off and they may be less responsive, in the sense that they’d rather not engage in any activity or conversation and they’d rather be left alone. they may make a soft whimper from their throat from time to time, depends on their personality (if they don’t mind others seeing their discomfort, they may whimper. but if your character doesn’t like anyone seeing them in a not-so-strong state, chances are they won’t make any sound, they might even pretend like they’re fine by continuing with their normal routine, and they may or may not end up throwing up or fainting).

if your character experience chronic pain, their pain will not go away (unlike any other illnesses or injuries where the pain stops after the person is healed) so they can feel all these types of sharp pain shooting through their body. there can also be soreness and stiffness around some specific spots, and it will affect their life. so your character will be lucky if they have caretakers in their life. but are they stubborn? do they accept help from others or do they like to pretend like they’re fine in front of everybody until their body can’t take it anymore and so they can no longer pretend?

neuropathic pain or nerve pain will have your character feeling these senses of burning, shooting and stabbing sensation, and the pain can come very suddenly and without any warning — think of it as an electric shock that causes through your character’s body all of a sudden. your character may yelp or gasp in shock, how they react may vary depends on the severity of the pain and how long it lasts.

EMOTIONAL PAIN

grief can make your character shut themself off from their friends and the world in general. or they can also lash out at anyone who tries to comfort them. (five states of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and eventual acceptance.)

heartbreak — your character might want to lock themself in a room, anywhere where they are unseen. or they may want to pretend that everything’s fine, that they’re not hurt. until they break down.

betrayal can leave a character with confusion, the feelings of ‘what went wrong?’, so it’s understandable if your character blames themself at first, that maybe it’s their fault because they’ve somehow done something wrong somewhere that caused the other character to betray them. what comes after confusion may be anger. your character can be angry at the person who betrayed them and at themself, after they think they’ve done something wrong that resulted in them being betrayed, they may also be angry at themself next for ‘falling’ for the lies and for ‘being fooled’. so yes, betrayal can leave your character with the hatred that’s directed towards the character who betrayed them and themself. whether or not your character can ‘move on and forgive’ is up to you.

there are several ways a character can react to anger; they can simply lash out, break things, scream and yell, or they can also go complete silent. no shouting, no thrashing the place. they can sit alone in silence and they may cry. anger does make people cry. it mostly won’t be anything like ‘ugly sobbing’ but your character’s eyes can be bloodshot, red-rimmed and there will be tears, only that there won’t be any sobbing in most cases.

hopelessness can be a very valid reason for it, if you want your character to do something reckless or stupid. most people will do anything if they’re desperate enough. so if you want your character to run into a burning building, jump in front of a bullet, or confess their love to their archenemy in front of all their friends, hopelessness is always a valid reason. there’s no ‘out of character’ if they are hopeless and are desperate enough.

fear and anxiety. your character may be trembling, their hands may be shaky. they may lose their appetite. they may be sweaty and/or bouncing their feet. they may have a panic attack if it’s severe enough.

and I think that’s it for now! feel free to add anything I may have forgotten to mention here!

I survived the day with four hours of sleep, a bottle of water, two cookies, a piece of cake and a piece of meat. Ps: No lunch or breakfast.

How am I alive these days after New Year's? Only the gods know.

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