I Want To Be Loved More Than I Want To Be Alive I Want To Be Loved More Than I Want To Be Alive I Want

i go from "i didn't deserve the things that happened to me" to "there is no suffering that I do not deserve" in like 3 seconds

gonna be real we may or may not be planning to meet up o//o

AAAAAA HE CALLED ME CUTE

you said you would ealierrr

tw: physical violence ig??

I would really appreciate it if you’d tell me how bad I am and beat me the tell me how bad I am again so I could like, stop thinking I’m good ever again, back to when I was five and convinced I wa the worlds biggest problem

Im so cooked tomorrow, dad is not gonna be happy

i go from "i didn't deserve the things that happened to me" to "there is no suffering that I do not deserve" in like 3 seconds

damnit

tw: physical violence ig??

I would really appreciate it if you’d tell me how bad I am and beat me the tell me how bad I am again so I could like, stop thinking I’m good ever again, back to when I was five and convinced I wa the worlds biggest problem

lord almighty-

SCALLS I WANNA HEAR YOU!!!!

I WANNA LISTEN AND I WANNA KNOW BECAUSE I DONT HAVE IT WORSE AND EVEN IF I DID YOURE STILL SUFFERING AND YOURE STILL MY SIBLING, I LOVE YOU AND I CARE ABOUT YOU SO PLEASE STOP APOLOGIZING FOR SIMPLY EXISTING BECAUSE YOUR EXISTENCE IS MORE THAN WANTED, WE NEED YOU <33

Okay maybe I will drop out of the arts programs if it pisses him off so much. He didn't have to come. I didn't want him to come. And now my mom's actually complaining about it too. What the fuck. I thought she was happy I was doing this shit. I love doing it but they seem to fucking hate it. They didn't have to give me money for food, they didn't have to stay for the concert, they could've told me I wasn't able to go because they didn't want to drive me. They could fucking ban me from theatre and shit. They're the ones who're allowing me to do these things why let me if it just makes you hate me???

tw: physical violence ig??

I would really appreciate it if you’d tell me how bad I am and beat me the tell me how bad I am again so I could like, stop thinking I’m good ever again, back to when I was five and convinced I wa the worlds biggest problem

Incredible, but true: @cytochrome-sea deserves to have a good day today.

I love you

If my heart doesn’t stop beating ISTG.