Academy Spirk.

Currently writing a fic post AOS Into Darkness where Jim wakes up at the end but instead of in the hospital is back at his first day at the academy with 3 years counting down to the events of the first movie.

Would anyone be interested in beta reading? The idea is that through his efforts he slowly becomes more like TOS Jim. Reach out, pls lmk, it’s in rough drafting right now and could use some eyes on it

Measure of Men (Series) by MonstrousRegiment

Star Trek (2009)/Incomplete/Works: 2   Words: 25,178   // One of my favorite crew fics. Because they’re  loyal and defensive and a family and I love them.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: James T. Kirk, Leonard McCoy, Spock, Nyota Uhura, Hikaru Sulu Additional Tags: Tarsus IV, POV Multiple, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Abuse, Physical Abuse, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Verbal Abuse, Torture, Psychological Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Interiorization of abuse, Jim deals, more or less, alien intervention, Enterprise Bridge Crew, Misunderstandings, Mind Invasion, Memories Summary:

The kid takes him to the ground, hard and fast, and the knife punches right through his throat. The man gurgles and blood sprays, and the kid’s head snaps up, blond hair flying everywhere, as he gives the blade a final, savage, twist and pulls it free. He’d know those eyes anywhere. It’s Jim Kirk.

One of the Best Tarsus IV fics out there

I have plans

Another popular vote from the fanfiction poll I had.

Summary: When Jim Kirk has to go meet with an alien civilization at the insistence of Starfleet Command, he begrudgingly is forced to leave a recovering Spock behind in sickbay. However, the aliens don't seem very interested in discussing things without his "other half," insisting that there is no reason to proceed without Kirk being "fully there."

Whatever the fuck that means.

The Once & Future Captain by Turtle_Goose

Mature

F/M; M/M

Jim/Leo; Spock/Nyota

34844 words; 8 chapters

The crew of the Enterprise is tasked with a classified mission to find a translation device that was developed by Hoshi Sato before her death. The mission takes the Enterprise to the mysterious Tarsus IV, a dead planet that once supported a thriving colony. Concerned about Captain Kirk and Lieutenant Riley’s alarming behavior, the crew delves into Kirk’s old life on Tarsus IV, uncovering the hidden horrors in the planet’s past and finally understanding their Captain in a way they’d never thought possible.

oooh, I have a prompt: Bones somehow learns that Jim was on Tarsus

It’s Pike who tells him.

Leonard has known Jim for over two years now and they’ve been inseparable ever since. He is a man of science, a doctor, he knows that nothing is promised in life. He has lost so much throughout his years - his father, his marriage, his daughter - but he has one certainty left.

It’s that Jim Kirk will be in his life one way or another.

Others must see it too, because one day Bones is called to Pike’s office, and Pike tells him.

“I know how important you are to Jim,” he tells him.

“I also know how important Jim is to you,” he tells him.

“That’s why I’ve decided to tell you something that Jim won’t tell you.”

And Pike tells him, “I’m only telling you so that you now, so that you understand him more.”

And Pike tells him, “You must never tell him you know.”

“What are you saying?” Bones asks, lips pressed together, heart beating fast against his rib cage.

“Jim was on Tarsus IV. Jim is a Tarsus Nine.”

Bones feels the world shattering around him, and yet when he opens his eyes again, breathless and cold, nothing has changed in the world apart from his perception of it.

That night, he doesn’t come back to his room.

He walks and walks, thinking so many thoughts at the same time that he can’t come up with anything, and his mind is like a storm and he’s in the eye of it, and everything around him is moving but he’s not really there.

Jim was on Tarsus IV. Jim is a Tarsus Nine.

It’s unfair, he wants to scream, it’s so wrong. Not Jim, not bright strong beautiful Jim.

And yet it makes sense, a terrible maddening sense. Jim’s fixation on food, the way he always makes sure everyone else is eating before he starts on his own plate, or how he has secret stashes of food, just in case, he says.

It explains the nightmares too, and the sleepless nights, and the heaviness in his eyes he gets sometimes, or how old he appears at times, drained and overcome.

That explains also Jim’s strength. Jim’s courage and unwavering sense of justice. His kindness, his softness also, hidden away under a carefree mask.

“I’m only telling you so that you know, so that you understand him more,” Pike told Bones and Bones understands Jim more than ever.

He also loves and respects him more than ever.

Bones comes back to their room as the sun rises.

“Where were you, man? I was worried sick. Oh, shit, are you okay? Fuck, what happened?”

Bones says nothing. He takes a step towards his friend - amazing and heroic - and puts his arms around him, and holds him tight.

“Bones?”

“I just need you to be here. Please.”

He can feel Jim nod, “Okay. I can do that.”

They won’t mention this again, but now Bones knows, and he understands.

Another Tarsus IV fic rec. Thirty in all.

These recs are made of fics that are about Tarsus IV or reference Tarsus IV. Hope you enjoy. 

Rivers by n_anon on archiveofourown. Rated Mature. Summary: A tale of two people averse to the concept of destiny, but who can’t seem to escape it.

The Cave by elospock on archiveofourown. Rated Mature. Summary: Most probably a slow K/S, post-STID. After Khan was defeated, the Enterprise was given a five-year mission to explore the uncharted and the unknown. However, things seem to be quite rocky between Captain James T. Kirk and his First Officer Spock. And they don’t seem to get any better as Kirk’s past resurfaces in disquieting circumstances…The rating might have to be changed to rape/non-con and graphic depiction of violence, though it doesn’t concern the first chapters. It might eventually get pretty intense, though that part of the story is not written yet. Not for the fainthearted (though I don’t know, it might not be that extreme… better be safe than sorry, in any case! And I don’t want to mislead anybody either!)LLAP!

Five People Who Were Affected by Kirk’s Death by Starsinger on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary: And One Whose Death Affected Him. Okay, so I’m trying my hand at this five things thing, and it’ll probably be lame. Who knows? I don’t.

Jim’s Haunting Past by kiylitier on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary:Jim and Bones are contacted to secretly meet Pike at Star Fleet’s headquarters. But when attacked in an alleyway injuring Kirk, a figure appears to bring back memories that were buried deep. Kirk goes instantly into PTSD causing Bones to worry about his friends. Who is this figure? What causes Jim to act so irrationally? A fight to save each others lives begin. Kirk/McCoy Injured

Murderer, Myself by heathersdomain on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Anton Karidian is dead - shot by his own daughter, who had been aiming for Captain Kirk when Karidian stepped in the way.But there’s more to it than that. It doesn’t take Spock long to see the discrepancy, to notice the difference, to realize its implications. The problem is, what to do once he’s realized the truth: that Karidian died because Captain Kirk allowed him to?Post The Conscience of the King.

What You Are by melonbutterfly on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Spock and Jim are getting closer and closer, gravitating towards each other. They’re not quite there yet, though, and Jim has something important to tell Spock.

Test of Time by notboldly on archiveofourown. Rated Explicit.  Summary: While balancing between two sides of a war, Jim is forced back in time to relive his worst memories.

Strength of Men by 1lostone on archiveofourown. Rated Explicit. Summary: While a deadly disease incapacitates the Enterprise, an old enemy of Jim’s forces him to remember his time on Tarsus IV. Spock finds Kirk’s pain unacceptable.UPDATE: 7, August 2015. Wow, this fic is five years old and I’ve changed a LOT as a writer since then. I hope, anyway. With the help of FoxyK I’m finally getting around to betaing this for typos. Most of the fic- plot points, etc- should stay the same, unless one of us finds something especially cringe-worthy!

Melt This Frozen Heart by Boonaddicious  on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Kirk receives a unique gift on an away mission - a gift that will bring his fears to the light, and test his relationship to the most important person in his life.“Kirk took a deep breath and dropped his impromptu weapon. The energy had left his hands, but adrenaline still pumped through his system. He knew this would require quite a bit of explanation, but the sheer elation of having beaten this psycho with some preternatural ability made him feel like he could walk on water. However, his mood darkened when he turned to look at Spock.Spock was gripping his injured arm as he sat on the ground, and was staring at Jim with unmasked fear.”

the violence of comets by viverella on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Jim has never once, in his life, believed in love. He wears his bare skin with only his own tattoo circling his ankle as a badge of honor.He meets a man named Leonard McCoy on a shuttle in Riverside, Iowa who believes exactly the opposite.(That AU in which everyone is born with a unique tattoo on their ankle that no one else has and every time you fall in love, their tattoo appears somewhere on your body.)

Crash of Expectations by vamprav on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: In another place, in another time Kirk hacked into the Kobayashi Maru and broke it. In this place and in this time Kirk hacks and the Kobayashi Maru and fixes it. But what’s different about him, what made him change his mind. The answer is obvious of course. In that other place and in that other time Kirk was fully human. In this place and in this time he isn’t. (Another T’Pring on Tarsus IV fic.)

His father’s eyes by Captain_Mercurian  on archiveofourown. Rated Not Rated. Summary: “I found George’s son,” Pike told him 21 years later with a gentle and somewhat guilty expression on his aging face. Spock felt numb all over. “He was rotting in Iowa and I convinced him to join Starfleet.” There was a slight pause. “He has George’s eyes.”

Jim’s Wounds by slytheringreen91 on fanfiction.net. Rated Mature. Summary: Jim beams back from the Narada with some ‘not so superficial’ wounds. What happens when Bones and Spock find out? Rating for language only.

Harnessing Starfire by Sherza on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: The Enterprise has a crew unlike any other. They are the best and brightest that Starfleet has to offer, the vast majority of them are painfully young, and they are largely untried. They are led by the most unpredictable and explosive duo that has ever graced Starfleet Command.Alpha and Beta Quadrants are reeling under the after-effects of Nero’s second rampage. The Klingon Empire’s fleet has been gutted. The Romulans are ominously silent. The shattered remnants of the Vulcans are desperately trying to save their culture and their people.All eyes are on the Enterprise, the boatload of children who succeeded where an entire armada failed. Depending on who you talk to, they are heroes, villains, or ignorant, blindingly lucky upstarts. After their rather explosive beginning, how will the Enterprise and her command crew fare?

Space Husband Ficlet Collection by Phyona on archiveofourown. Chapter Summary: Kirk was saved from Tarsus IV by Vulcans when he was fourteen, but the memory of Kodos the Executioner and his child soldiers still haunts him. It takes another Vulcan to save him when a man resembling Kodos comes aboard the Enterprise, reminding Kirk that he never truly escaped his past.Based on 'The Conscience of the King’ from Star Trek TOS. Mentions of trauma, panic attacks, and starvation. (Link takes you to the chapter about Tarsus IV.)

Not This Time on SineadRivka on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: The crack of rock startled Spock, causing him to bark for a status update from Chekov. He wrapped an arm around his mother’s waist, fingers gripping hard enough that he hoped he wouldn’t bruise his human parent. And then the ground gave way. Distantly, the words, “I’m losing them, I’m losing them!” echoed from the communicator clipped to his belt.White surrounded them, and he felt himself falling …

Overcast Horizons by Ael on archiveofourown. Rated Not Rated. Summary:  Spending three years exploring deep space is starting to take its toll on the crew of the Enterprise. The discovery of a new planet should be routine, but this time, the consequences are greater than anyone was expecting.A rewrite of Star Trek Beyond, in the mutantverse.

To the Sea and the Sun by perhapsoneday on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Everyone’s heard of the Kelvin Incident. The same can’t be said for the Massacre of Tarsus IV, or even the name James T. Kirk. But for every two things that change, at least one remains the same.

Genesis by beamirang on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary: A Captain is all things to all people. Jim is running on fumes, and it takes more than good luck and nerves of steel to be the leader the crew of the Enterprise need.

Men and Monsters by  Aneeta Potter on fanfiction.net. Rated: Teen. Summary: Kirk’s never really come to terms with the mess of his life before Starfleet, opting instead to ignore it. But when (one of) his childhood monsters reappears his past slams into the present.

The Reminders of Yesterday by Nibelethe on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary: During a routine mission, two years after the Narada incident, the Enterprise beams its Captain and away-team back from an uninhabited planet, only to find them drastically altered. No Pairings.

When Q Becomes Your Last Chance…  by  whiteraven1606 on livejournal. Rated NC-17. Summary: Jim Kirk gets himself de-aged and his crew can’t figure out a way to fix it until Spock Prime makes a suggestion that leads to drastic actions.

Reunited by golden_rhythm on livejournal. Rated Not Rated. Summary: Written for this prompt on st_xi_kink: So, how about Kevin gets assigned to the Enterprise, and Kirk instinctively becomes big brother protective over the guy, even putting friendships and relationships on hold for Kevin(but no sacrificing the ship for him)! Taking a hit or almost dying for Kevin on a mission is fun!! Angst ensues! 

Streetlight People by adyblahblah on livejournal. Rated NC-17. Summary: AU. Strangers waitin up and down the boulevard, their shadows searchin’ in the night.  Streetlight people, living just to find emotion; hiding somewhere in the night.

Marching On by Rusting Roses on livejournal. Rated R. Summary: For the Tarsus IV fic challenge #29: I want to see Jim forced to relive Tarsus IV–but not just because some aliens were sadistic or whatever, but as a test–and I would love the reward to be one of two things 1) either Vulcan is restored or 2) Amanda is alive again. I’ll make you wait til the end to see which one I picked. The title is taken from the OneRepublic song Marchin On. 

The Handmaid of Genius by ladyblahblah on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: For the [info]trek_hc fic exchange.  When the replicators go offline, Jim reacts unexpectedly.

Wholesome Heart by WerewolvesAreReal on m.fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary:  14 year old James Kirk finally encounters someone else on Tarsus IV, the first ray of hope he’s encountered since the takeover. Mirrorverse, Tarsus ficlet.

Anything by IvanW on archiveofourown. Rated Explicit. Summary: Spock would do anything to be with Jim…for real.

Time’s Divergence by logical_stimuli on livejournal. Rated Not Rated. Summary: Written for st_xi_kink http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/4104.html?thread=9589768#t9589768 Let’s pretend that Spock Prime came through the same time Nero did, and Kirk lost both parents in the attack. Spock Prime raises Kirk, teaching him all he needs to know. Bonus points if Kirk ends up meeting nuSpock.You own my soul if you include the line: “He is just like you Jim. A bit more calm, a bit more knowledgeable, but I can see you in every move he makes. You’d be proud of him, dear friend.”

can’t watch you drown anymore, my friend by pieandsouffle on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Normally, Nyota is happy than usual when Kirk shuts his stupid mouth. But this kind of quietness… it doesn’t make her happy. It just doesn’t feel right.

hi, fic to do with merlin self harming ? ?

Yesss I do have quite a few. I’ll admit I haven’t got round to reading them all yet, so I’m sorry about that. I hope you like them (: *Some of them contain suicide attempts/thoughts I will give warnings to those ones*

Be My Escape

When his best friend dies, a little bit of Merlin dies with him. He’s struggling with self-harm, Hunith’s struggling with alcoholism and everything seems hopeless. Then he meets Arthur Pendragon, someone who might be able to put him back together. Except Arthur’s got problems too, and not everything is that simple. Can they make it work?

High School AU

Eating Disorders

Suicide

Bullying

Minor Character Death

*This ^^ is probably my personal favourite*

Healing

Arthur has never mentioned Merlin’s scars.

Hurt/Comfort

Angst

Turning Page

When Merlin, best loved singer/songwriter in the UK, tragically loses his parents in a car accident his life is turned upside down. Depressed and alone he’s ready to give up and leave it all behind, but then he hears a voice.

Angst

Modern Au

Depression

The Dying Type

Merlin tries to end his life for unknown reasons. Arthur swears he should have seen some sort of self-destructive signs, but what if there hadn’t been any?

Suicide Attmept

Angst

Gwen/Arthur

Merlin/Arthur

You Cannot Leave Me Behind

Merlin’s failed suicide attempt.

Suicide attempt

Before Dawn

When Arthur stops his father’s men from abusing a Druid captive, he sets into motion a chain of events that will bring him face to face with his destiny.

Canon AU

Slavery

Hurt/Comfort

Attempted Rape 

Dub-con

Short Fics:

Running Scared I Was There, I Remember It All Too Well

After Morgana kills herself, Merlin and Arthur have to go on. Merlin just doesn’t know how.

Suicide Mentions

Death Does not Embrace You

Arthur can’t hang him for sorcery if he’s dead.

I Will No Other To Follow Me Where I’m Going

The guards in the higher towers have additional training - in talking jumpers down from ledges if need be

*All Merlin/Arthur and Self Harm*

Reccomendation

The Perfect Man by zoetrope13

Spock and Kirk met young and promptly got bonded. Now they are at the Academy together but don’t broadcast their relationship. Uhura, who thinks Kirk could never do monogamy, starts crushing hard on Professor Spock.

monsterdib: so I really love this fic and I wanted to share it with you guys! You’re all so awesome and I thought since you’re always reccing fics you might be up for receiving one. Hope you enjoy and Happy holidays :D