You’re My Hero!

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People who insist that they can see Chuuya having a thing for Dazai at 15 or in dark era and Dazai being uninterested are so odd to me like, bruh, Chuuya legit disliked Dazai at 16 and Dazai was in his worst state mentally during Dark era. If anything Chuuya is more likely to like him as a person now with how much value Dazai puts in life. And Dazai has been obsessed with Chuuya since day 1.

Damn. Is that a new soukoku dump? Might be.

inspired by @sensitiveheartless comic

Thinking abt Dazai being infatuated with Chuuya's resting face after corruption.

Thinking about how he progressively ventured with how much he provided caring touches each time Chuuya is out cold.

These are the only moments he sees Chuuya completely resting, without anger or stress drawn onto his features. These are the only times Soukoku can even have silent moments between them, free of exclaims and insults.

The first few instances Dazai would just sit beside him, observe from afar the way his chest heaves and the blood trickles from his skin. The way he's completely vulnerable without a care in the world, like Dazai's presence is somehow grounding for him, safe. And isn't that the dumbest thing he'd ever concluded?

Then the Dragon Head conflict happens, and Dazai can't help but carress his hair, give him a sense of comfort after Chuuya just told him to never stop him. He doesn't hate it as much as he thought it would.

But then, as they resort to corruption more and more, he'd take a risk and hold his hand, maneuvering him to be more comfortable. It would be a pain to have Chuuya develop essential tremors for how his hands shake at these times, wouldn't it? So he'll keep them steady, never letting the blood stain the bandages, else Chuuya would figure him out.

The next time he'd hold Chuuya completely in his arms, because surely the ground can't be that comfortable, and he'd hate for his dog to get sclerosis or something.

And rarely, when they are truly alone, when Dasai is sure they're in the clear, he'd even lean forward so he's resting on Chuuya's shoulder, almost falling asleep himself. His coat is black, so it'd never show the blood smearing him everywhere. And Chuuya isn't that smart to reckon what happens when he falls asleep. It's fine.

Chuuya would be hurled the moment he conveys even the smallest signs of waking up, even if he isn't waking up at all, and Dazai would collect himself with an inhale, struggling to fully accept his indulgence in these quiet moments, and knowing he'd miss them for how gradually shorter they're becoming.

And, in fact, Chuuya had already made the connection, seeing how he wakes up with blood smearing Dazai's white shirt, despite getting nullified solely by the wrist, and being wildely far away from Dazai every time at the result of being thrown, despite feeling like he was cozily held not a second earlier.

Though for how hard Dazai is trying to keep this from him, he doesn't find it in himself to be obnoxious about it. And really, he isn't awake himself for it anyways, so there isn't a risk of him gagging from how sappy this all is. He'll be lenient this once and grant the bastard what he guesses is some sort of comfort for him.

Thus he never brings it up.

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sorry guys. this is kinda a rough first post. hi ^^

Have togachako to ruin your soul <3 I've been waiting for this to be animated for so long and I just had to draw smth for the occasion. I love them so much

Fifteen, sixteen, twenty-two…

He loved him until the very end.

they are judging people on the street for sure

Oh golly me what a terrible accident I just made

happy last day of happiness!

thinking abt the "dazai and chuuya elope and join the ada together" au again..

Me when satan does literally anything: 😍

IM CRYING SO MUCH I LOVE HIM PLEASE I LOVE HIM AND I JUST WANT TO SNUGGLE WITH HIM LIKE THAT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭