@winterpilgrim

hii , literally thank you so much for supporting me since the start and liking my posts and commenting , I truly appreciate it and it means a lot❤, hope you really have an amazing day!! You made my day 💕

Hiii sweetheart !!!! You are very very welcome. I just treat people the way i would like to be treated so please continue beeing so sweet and creating such beautiful art ! I love your work 🥰 and i hope you have a beautiful day too 🫶🤍 the greatest gift you can give me is your happiness ☺️🤍🤍🤍

Schmerz ?

Wieso ist Schmerz so gemein?

Sollte es nicht nur eine Lehre sein,

um seine hand nicht mehr auf die herdplatte zu legen,

oder um die Hand zu schützen beim Sägen.

Ich weiß es nicht, ich versteh es nicht,

wie der Schmerz uns täglich in zwei Teile zerbricht.

Also möcht ich etwas machen, damit die Leute mehr lachen!

Doch das schaff nicht nur ich, dafür brauch ich auch dich.

Um gegen den Schmerz zu gewinnen, must du viel Mut mitbringen.

-B.I

Wahre Gefühle

Ach wie vermisse ich es jemanden zu genießen,

so sehr dass mir die Freudentränen durch die

Adern fließen

und wie der Volltreffer beim schießen.

Ich vermiss es süchtig zu sein als würd ich

ersticken im Keim als würden alle Dächer auf

mich herab fallen

und der Himmel auf den Boden knallen.

Ach ich will ein Feuerwerk im Bauch

so wie’s dir geht nach deinem Lieblings Schmaus.

Aber wie soll das gehen,

wie soll so ein gewaltiges Gefühl entstehen.

Ich suche Tag und Nacht aber dennoch hat es mir

nichts gebracht.

Was ist der Fehler was ist die Lösung

ich will hinaus in die liebe ganz ohne Sicherung,

mit vollem Knall und ganzer Energie

geh ich hin und vergess sie nie.

-BI

Checklist:

One:

always respect a caring mom

Two:

dont talk if you have no clue

Three:

be what you want your kids to be

Four:

always search for more

But five:

dont take more than you need to survive

And six:

dont use dirty tricks

Seven:

believe everyone could reach heaven

Because eight:

you don’t need to be great, straight or perfect

weight

Nine:

Treat yourself divine

Ten:

because nobody else can

-B.I

Reality Check

Hello again after a while

I know, such long absence is not my style

But i have so many struggles to deal with

I am praying for „its getting better“

to be no myth

So i packed up my warmest sweater

And wrote this letter

Its about feelings happy or sad

Its about the best i ever had

And all the times i got mad

Mad because i feel so empty

Like the nutella jar on day twenty

But no one is seeing

My loneliness and emptiness

Just how well i‘m being

How thin i‘m becoming

All the happiness

All the dm‘s incoming

I must be famous or something

I wish someone would look under this cover

If its my mother a brother or a lover

I just want it to be recognised

To be recognised that i‘m not doing well

and its a long way down i fell

To come for me, to love for me, to fight for me

and to never leave me

But the longer i wait the more i understand

That there will be no one coming

And it has to be me I’m counting

I have to come for me, love me, fight me, and

never ever leave me

Its like in Phantom of the Opera

„Learn to be lonely

Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you“

And i think thats true

-B.I

Hard feelings.

Now I’m in his bed

This moment fulfilling every dream I ever had

Cuddles, kisses and he treats me like a Mrs.

But there is no satisfaction in it

There has to be a problem with me at least a bit,

cause I thought we were the perfect fit.

Now my thoughts keep running crazy

Just like Donald Loves Daisy

and I dancing with Swazy

while smoking the blunt Bob said is hazy.

This makes no sense ?

Oh didn’t knew that, thanks.

I know I should enjoy

Not all men treat woman like a toy

But it’s so hard to believe

Because of all the pain I received.

-B.I

I love it ! 🤍

the hardest quest of the day

is the journey to my bed.

the place where all my thoughts

go racing in my head.

.

lavender tea, a hint of honey,

my nightly calm routine.

bittersweet potion to aid the fight

with the demons that I keep.

.

climb in cold sheets, pen in hand

my notebook in my lap.

these words are my sword and shield.

attack, attack, attack.

-Ink Knight-

BL 2022

“They tried to put me on the cover of Vogue,

but my pain was tooooooo strong”

Everyday is painday,

Monday Tuesday Wednesday,

despression and pain,

my tolerance level is insane

but after 4 years

I still don’t Know how to control my tears.

Trying to stay strong

but that doesn’t last long,

That’s no surprise

With a pain in this size.

Pills, Doctors and therapies

are my worst enemies,

they all do the same shit

that not even helps me a bit.

So I accept it every day,

that the pain will never go away.

-B.I

Point of view

So many men treating wo/men like shit

it feels like it doesn’t matter even a bit

But that isnt the bad thing about it

Its the matter of course thats the shit

Getting dickpicks without asking

Is the thing thats so blasting

Or be treated like a peace of meat

Doesn’t matter if you take a seat,

jump on the beat

or just stand on your feet.

They always find an opportunity

to catch a sight of your body heat.

Men thinking we cant see them gazing

They really think they are hazing

Their disrespect is just amazing.

Thinking we are dumb enough

To not recognise all the disgusting stuff.

Thats so unfair please remember that shit

Cause u wont be laughing about it

If that once happens to your kid

Never mind if daughter or son

They will be the burned one

It will stick to their memorys like a gum

I wonder what place you are from

there is nothing good you’ve ever done

And the world would be better when you’re gone

So go ask your mom

Where did this asshole behaviour come frome ?

What was the reason ?

Who’s fault

And what is this all about?

-B.I

Thank you so much for liking my posts, I really appreciate that🥰💕& thanks for your reply too.. though it was hard to digest it first😅, but i think I really needed that. To love ourselves is something I’ve only read about till now😅but it’s just always confusing.. i mean i do all that self care n all of my own stuff🤔🤷‍♀️😕… but yeah, I do admit I don’t really have that mentality😅.. ‘To actually love myself the way I expect someone else would’ is something I need to look into. Like I really think you were right with that! I do think whenever/if i will be in a relationship, i do have a huge tendency to turn into someone clingy (if not by actions then thoughts🤔)..

Also yes😁, I went through your poems and read each of them😍they’re really well-written & relatable. I’m not much of a poet or a writer myself😅, but i can say.. I really enjoyed reading yours🙌😁n they do get the msg through!✨

Hey i just wanted to say that i am so touched by your message ! I am so happy i touched you with my words and that you understood that i meant it ally by heart and for your happiness. I hope you have started working on loving yourself more because you deserve to be loved !!!!! ❤️❤️

And thank you for all your kind and nice kompliments to my poems, its such a blessing when my work gets appreciated 🥰🙏🫶❤️

Keep on beeing such a beautiful person beeing and always protect but not prison your heart ❤️❤️❤️ (learned that from a beautiful person)