I Think Of This All The Time

I think of this all the time

Especially when Gansey gets all in his head with the fact everyone else feels like they’re so far past him, and how he always feels he is somehow going to be left behind. Imagine having that insecurity not only become a reality but something so indisputable as DEATH.

even with Noah who is dead, Gansey never once lashes out to him/at him with that experience. Or tries to relate to him in way he would feel would minimize Noah’s own afterlife.

He never begs for things to be different, or as op says lashes out, he is so startling calm that even when he does die, it’s almost peaceful.

can we talk about gansey knowing he’s going to die???? bc there are so many angles on it. he never guilts ronan or any of his friends about it, there is no ‘for when i’m not around to sort out your messes speech’. he doesn’t assign any responsibility to anyone. there is no talk about taking care of ronan. none of his friends are tasked with sorting through his things. it could be argued that some of this is because of his security in his friends and their growth as people allowing them to care for one another but he doesn’t talk about it at all. he doesn’t even tell ronan. i don’t remember if he knows adam knows but i don’t think he does. for the entire series he’s accommodating the emotions and struggles and outbursts of everyone around him and when it comes to his death, he simply continues. he doesn’t trouble his friends who have their own problems or who may be upset by his oncoming death and just continues as he was.