For Someone Who Spends Hours Convincing Herself That She Isn't Traumatized I Sure Do Have Quite A Few

Growing up female is traumatic. From a young age I remember being terrified that I was going to be harrassed because I had developed faster and more obviously than my peers. Even now I shudder at the idea of having to bend over in front of men of any age. I got catcalled twice at 17 by other boys my age. I couldn't drive and I was waiting for my mom to come pick up from school and two boys from inside a car at the pick up line yelled something sexual at me. I will spare you the deals but despite my false bravado and real rage I felt nothing more than embarrassed and ashamed once they had left. I had rumors around my sexual life even before I had a serious relationship of any kind and I had male friends who had found me being sexually innocent funny. The things they'd watch and openly show me was nothing more than disgusting yet the idea of exploring my sexuality and then finding out I was bisexual had me ashamed because I thought that they would be weirded out

I can go on but I won't

No it isn’t “girlboss” or feminist to say that you don’t care about the rape of Israeli women because of what’s happening in Palestine

Indeed

Do you think he looks like a hamster?

Do you recognize this man?

Alexander the 1st of russia?

Real talk why does social interaction feel like you’re trying to get a good grade in being a person

Me: I'm not that obviously disabled by my autism Also me: Has a meltdown shutdown cycle for three weeks and although I've escaped it I'm still spiraling with anger issues out of the stress of a new transition beginning this fall

That's all for tonight. See y'all around the next time I feel motivated enough to post incoherent rambles back to back like this

Not to start shit but you ever think about how most men will never post on International men's day but when it's international women's day they complain all the time about international men's day not getting any attention

Men's mental health month is also in June but many of them would rather complain about gay people having pride month than actually use that month to talk about men's mental health

Me when the autism kicks in while I'm in the middle of talking with a friend:

There's a class I want to take in University but it's already taken up by a class that I got pre-enrolled in

Booktok romance books scare me somewhat. Why is it sexy to have a guy take your birth control out as a form of foreplay?????

That and I made the mistake of reading Coleen Hoover books. They have the exact same formula of angst sex angst sex and then woah happy ending no one saw coming even though they have a toxic relationship. The only redeeming one that I read was “It ends with us” and even that one made me uncomfortable and not the way she wanted us to be if I had to guess