May 13th

May 13th

Today was weird, and an unfortunate reminder that I will do very well when I leave for college. I love my family, don't get me wrong, but the way they love me is manner in which I would not treat someone I despised. I'm being dramatic, today wasn't that bad, and there's no point relishing the negatives.

I woke up in a surprisingly good mood at 8 am, and then went back to sleep immediately, waking up later at 11. I got up and indulged in the darkness of my room for a while until I remembered I was put on this earth to be a person, not a shadow, and we had new groceries downstairs. None of them were put away, mostly just laying around on the counters, which some days would've tipped me over the edge but today I took it in strides. I had a sandwich for lunch with three pickle spheres, then fed the cats and got the mail. I watched heretic today and babysat my nephew for a while, earning 20 dollars which inches me closer to my 110 dollar goal. I had chicken wraps for dinner, and a chocolate bar a while later.

A good day really, and after acknowledging that I feel significantly better. I have a habit of overreacting to small inconveniences, I really am trying to even out a bit through. I'll probably go get some grapes and watch another movie with Sophie thatcher in it, and maybe I'll make good enough choices that It'll feel like self improvement, and please my ever self-conscious teenager mind. Or i'll fall asleep reading superhero yaoi fanfiction again, who knows.

xoxo, Sophie Thatcher I want you.