Genuinely Wish I Could Stop Thinking. It's Not Even Intrusive Thought Anymore, They're Just So RANDOM

i'm such a coward

"i have the endurance of a god," i say, knowing damn well i haven't endured shit

i was talking to myself when i realized it wasn't myself i was talking to. it was someone i know, except they weren't actually talking to me. idk if everyone does this but i just came to the realization that i have full blown conversations with this one person only for all the conversations to be imaginary. what the fuck.

okay i ruined your life but did you not have fun? exactly relax

it was not on wheat...

"i'll try including everyone better form now on!" why. why can't you exclude everyone. everyone except for me. god you're too nice

as someone who spends an unusual amount of time thinking about the vibes of various words, objects, and shapes, i have to admit that GAD and ASPD have crazy aura purely in terms of sound

meetcute where someone slips a note that says "i've been watching you" into one of my school books but i can't decipher whether it's in a cutesy "i've seen you around, you're pretty" way or in a "i stalk you on your way back home, you're pretty" way

unfortunately my desire to see them happy greatly contradicts my desire to be the one and only reason they're happy

anyone else have that feeling in your gut that's always telling you to kill yourself