𝔇𝔬𝔫’𝔱 𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔠𝔢 𝔦𝔱. 🍋

What do you do when you don't feel like a person anymore? When all you feel like is an extension to everybody else's life? I like being needed most of the times, but I absolutely hate it in moments when I stop feeling like a fucking valid person anymore, when being needed absolutely fucks up with my personal progress, be it academic, psychological, physical or emotional. When people who need my help feel entitled to it and I feel too exhausted to even defend myself on that stand, when all I want to do is cry about it.

01.09.2022

train rides & cafés beloved

to do list? done! (well had to push some stuff but the important stuff)

wildly dancing to: family ties - bastille

I am not a full AI skeptic but when it comes to AI-as-writer types I find its endorsers to be all the counterexample you need. Look at this:

Which is a fine enough basic idea, this has applications ofc. Then you zoom in:

And its like what on earth are you asking about. That is not an ambiguous sentence - particularly if you have any inkling at all of the plot of the Screwtape Letters, which you should if you are reading it. There is nothing in need of explanation here!

Even more silly, GPT's response isnt wrong, but because the sentence is a not-subtle, direct statement its 'explanation' is just a long-winded rephrasing of the sentence, it adds no value. But that didnt stop this person from copying the entire text into his notes apparently! His notes are an anti-synthesis of the text, *reducing* its meaning-per-word.

As an aid to a highschool freshman reading it, sure, this has value, its a google search tutor generating novel links on the spot. But these images were selected by the tweet author to highlight its value as a research aid for serious analysis, this should be the best it has to offer. What it shows instead is this use is an extremely poor fit for the tool.

I fully believe future developments will progress the tool in this direction; my point instead is how much of the hype is just froth right now. This tweet was not born of the impressive results of Chat-GPT; it was born of the impressive reach one can get shoehorning Chat-GPT into your content.

that Beige™️ lifestyle really has me in a chokehold 😔

The problems I face are not made for any finite state automata model, so to assume a book would solve it is hopeless. But I was born hopeless, so I like this post.

1st November 2022

Hi, I know I haven’t been here in ages! But I wanted to come back and tell you guys I finally picked up Annie Ernaux. I have devoured this and am now desperate to read Simple Passion immediately. I talk a bit about it in my first newsletter that I will discuss more later. In the mean time - how is everyone? Who else loves Annie Ernaux?

longer days on my victorian campus ✨

A little from my weekdays....

Currently I'm studying HTML, watching interview with the vampire and reading the book at the same time, having fun comparing the differences between the masterpiece written and the adaptation for this century!

ALONE WITH YOU IN THE ETHER; BY OLIVIE BLAKE.....

Reading is perhaps the best of meditations......