I Could Literally Be Dying In Front Of My Family And They’d Still Tell Me To Stop Being Dramatic And

The urge to die tonight went along with the desire to live forever.

Light made peace with darkness I'll tell you when it happened, never.

“…it will get better again”

it has gotten better before, it will get better again

I’ve never been good with words, but I always wondered why people told me about their problems...

Maybe because I was always ready to give a hug, a cup of tea and an ear to listen.

“To be honest with you, I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart; a heart that’s aching to see you smile again.”

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Another suggestion: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_inventors_killed_by_their_own_inventions

question for you and the himbo: what is the meaning of life?

Brad; https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Man%27s_Search_for_Meaning

𝙾𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟻, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟷 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶 -𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹

— unknown

I’m not old.

I’m 19 years old.

But I feel old. I feel really old, like I’ve lived “life”.

Just not to it’s full potential

Maybe... I don’t know

But I feel old

I missed out on so much things that I’ve wanted to do

But life seemed to have stopped for me when I was 14

Life stopped and started hitting rewind every single day

Rewind

Rewind

Rewind

I’m so tired

Next October I’m going to be 20

Then 30

40

50

60

70?

How long will I life for?

Life’s so short

Fragile

Slips right through your fingers

Gone just like that

I

Will I age? Will I become old?

Because it almost feels like I’m already old. I have so much I want to do.

So much to look forward to

So much places to see, so much people to meet.

So much plans to carry out.

But it also feels like there’s nothing there for me. Nothing waiting for me.

Is it because I feel old...

Maybe.

Maybe not.

I don’t know.

I wish I could talk and talk and talk to someone and they’d look at me and tell me

Tell me why? How? When? What? Who?

Why why why why?

Tell me it’s ok...maybe

Because I don’t know.

-a

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Over The Garden Wall (2014)

أعوذ بالله من أن أكون كَنُوداً، أعُد البلايا و أنسى النعَم

"I seek refuge in Allah from being ungrateful, counting the calamities and forgetting the blessings."