No, I'm Not Crying! You Are!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63915418

Some Dadow content (and first upload) is now up on ao3! Feel free to check it out!

Neurodivergency Headcanons for Sonic Characters

Shadow is Autistic Sonic has ADHD Silver has Dyslexia and Discalculia Sticks has OCD Blaze has Dyslexia Amy has OCD Tails is Autistic and has Dyslexia Eggman has Dyspraxia Knuckles has Dysgraphia Rouge has Tourette Syndrome (She primarily has motor tics)

Maybe I'll add more characters or more detailed descriptions, idk

Welcome!

Hi, I'm Arkturus, and welcome to the blog!

I'm a Sonadow and Arthurlot shipper, and I have a BUNCH of AUs in the works!

I normally post my writing on AO3, but you might be able to check some stuff out under the Arkturmistswrites tag! (once I actually begin to post stuff ;-;), and some WIPs with the ArkturmistsWIP tag, too! (Though those will be rarer) If you're in any rambles and/or random thoughts, look at the ArkturmistsYaps tag I hope you have a great time here!!

LANCELOT!

lancelot portrait

CROSSPOSTED FROM AO3: I AM DISGUSTED BY RUMORS.

I don't use this account but I've hung onto the handle, and I guess now I'm using that handle to post... this.

To put it bluntly: people have been spreading rumors that I’m a weirdo around children. Details in the doc. TL;DR: I am not. I am utterly revolted by these accusations.

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It’s come to my attention recently that folks have been spreading rumors that I’m a creep around children. I want to address those rumors here, because I’m sick of people running around and spreading misinformation.

I am DISGUSTED by this. I’m FURIOUS. 

The rumors stem from a source that I will admit IS true: a nsfw fanfic I wrote in 2020ish. That fanfic was Wonderstruck. In my revised version of WS, titled Enchanted (Taylor’s Version), I vaguely touched on this subject in my author’s notes, hoping it would quell any misinformation, but clearly vague isn’t enough, so I’m putting my foot down here.

I would like to preface this by making sure I express right off the bat: I am a SEX-REPULSED ASEXUAL. I don’t even like the idea of sexual interactions with adults, let alone children. Yuck!

That said:

When I wrote WS, I was new to the fandom and eager to make friends. So eager that as I participated in a server full of other, far more popular authors at the time (who enjoyed NSFW content), I felt compelled to write something that would impress them, something that would help me fit in with them. I thought they were cool, and they ended up thinking I was a waste of time. These were big-name people, folks with far more kudos and reads and followers than I had at the time. Thus: I looked up to them.

I will not mention these people by name. I refuse to pass any sort of blame. That’s not the point of this.

That drama aside, I wrote WS to impress these people. I was not coerced or pressured to write smut, but I was driven by the latent, unspoken social pressure I felt when spending time with these people. “These people consume and write smut, ergo, I should do that so I can fit in with them, even though it’s not of my own interest.” I thought that by catering to their interests, I could slip into the clique (and I realize now that it was a clique and not an open, welcoming friend group). 

Probably a dodged bullet that I didn’t get any further with those people, lol. I digress.

That one, single instance of a fic that I have expressed upon multiple occasions my shame surrounding, has blown up into something horrible. Nobody is doing their research about it. I have not been secretive about this situation.

Let me establish a few things.

1.  I do not, in my daily life, enjoy any sort of sexual content, ESPECIALLY NOT that of minors! That is abhorrent! The very thought of consuming underage smut is making me vomit in my mouth a little.

2. I have never in my life DRAWN nsfw content of any kind. Don’t know where that rumor came from. 

3. Since Wonderstruck, I have not written a single nsfw fanfic.

4. In Wonderstruck, I established the characters to be adults. I am fully aware that this is a sticky subject, as many folks do not condone “aging up” characters–but I did want to throw this in. I did not write smut with the intent of writing children. From the very beginning of that fanfic I established Sonic and Shadow to be in their mid-twenties. Take that as you will.

5. I have never groomed or been otherwise weird around a child. The allegation here is INFURIATING.

I fully acknowledge and respect that the fanfic made some minors uncomfortable, and I deeply apologize for that. That fanfic made ME uncomfortable, too! I get it! That’s why I took it down. That’s why I completely rewrote it. I’m uncomfortable, you’re uncomfortable, we’re all uncomfortable. And I know my own past decisions have led me to this point. I’m so, so sorry.

The last thing I want is to create a space that minors feel unsafe in, which is why I’m posting this now. While I’ll be the first to admit I’m jumping into self-defense mode a bit, I also just want to make it clear that I do not, will not, and would never dream of being weird around minors. I’m so sorry that things have spiraled so far that folks believe so. :( 

That single fanfic is not who I am, and I do not want it to be my legacy. That fanfic was a projection of who other people were. It’s not even a pattern–it’s just one awkward instance that I have long since righted.

I just, I dunno. This isn’t the most eloquent thing I’ve ever written, but I’m still so shaky and mad and fucked up over the fact that people out there seem to believe these terrible things. I know I can’t stop rumors. They’ll just keep spreading, and spreading, and spreading. But my hope is that someone out there will hear something and think, “hey, let me do my research.” And they’ll come to my profile and see this.

So, I beg folks to look into things a bit more before they throw out such disgusting, potentially life-damaging allegations about people you don’t know and have never interacted with. I am a real, living human being. I have literally the same exact moral code as the folks throwing out these allegations, and I am furious and outraged and angry and sad that people think I’m one of those disgusting people out there who are actually doing real damage.

If anyone has any questions or wants more details, please don’t hesitate to ask. I want to be as forthright about this situation as possible, because I don’t want it to devolve even further.

Thanks for reading. I’m sorry it had to come to this. I’m gonna take a pause from writing fanfic for a little bit–just long enough to clear my head, probably.

Have a nice day :)

SLEEPY HEDGIES!!! SLEEPY HEDGIES!!!!

They kicked each other's ass before taking a nap together LMAO

The laugh NO ONE expects from the Ultimate Lifeform: The he he he laugh!

Got tagged here and on Twitter that clip compilation of Keanu and his he he he laugh

PLEASE LET US WRITE THIS

My favorite genre of post is "hey here's my idea for an episode of sonic boom" (example 1, example 2). These posts prompt me to believe that if we got together, we as tumblrinas could so easily write a new season of Sonic Boom. Here's my episode pitch: Sonic finds a random-ass pink hedgehog who looks suspiciously like him, around his age, and she just stares directly at him for about fifteen seconds before kidnapping him and yelling "MANIIIIIIIIIC GUESS WHO I FUCKING FOUUUUUUUUUUUUUND" because she is Sonia and Sonia and Manic are canon now

this is how I want the fifth movie to go

Edit: I made a part 2

Two Husbands and their bridemaids🤭