Here’s a theory: Cameron’s parents are Charlie’s godparents – they think that Charlie’s an angel, when, in reality, he’s far from it. Due to the boys’ closeness, they relentlessly bicker, although they mutually agreed to avoid mentioning it a lot around the others. That’s why Cameron’s betrayal hurt so much.
aka. headcanons
He has deep repressed feelings for Charlie Dalton. I will die on this hill. Charlie goes around flirting with the poets and Richard absolutely hates how easy he makes it look, and he hates that Charlie keeps putting himself out there because he’s right here so why would he need to flirt with anyone else?? But he can’t express that because he’s Cameron so he tries to make Charlie stop by acting like a dick.
Cameron’s dad is similar to Neil’s, but his mom is more affectionate (only when he behaves correctly though). He obviously is feeling a lot of pressure from somewhere, but, unlike Neil, whose family is determined to hate him no matter what, Cameron’s family has expressed approval and affection when he brings home all As or talks about how badly he wants to be whatever they want him to be. He feels there’s something in it for him if he lives how they want him to, whereas Neil doesn’t ever see himself being enough.
Neil’s death scared the shit out of him. He was finally beginning to open up and feel like a part of the Dead Poets, but when Neil died, ultimately because of his father, Cameron knew that could be him if he kept acting this way and hanging out with the Poets. That’s why he kept talking about self-preservation, he wanted them to understand how important conformation was. In his mind, he was taking care of his friends. He didn’t want them to die.
Sometimes he tries to come out to Charlie. “Hey, Charlie?” “Yeah Dick?” “I told you not to- never mind.” pause “How do you do it?” “Do what? I do a lot of things.” “You know, flirt with everyone... you make it seem so easy.” “Richard Cameron, are you asking me for advice?” “Eat shit, Dalton. Forget it.”
The whole “I love the clarinet” was an attempt to impress Charlie. It evidently did not work.
After that crazy year, Cameron’s mental health declined hugely. He got a taste of genuine happiness and was basically slapped in the face by life. He didn’t really believe in what his parents wanted anymore, but he was too scared to pursue his own desires.
Friendly reminder to include POC in the dark academia community more <3
“So, uh, Chris, where you in school?”
Gansey: i don’t want to tell anyone that blue and I are in a relationship cause it could change the dynamic of our group and possibly make things awkward since she and Adam used to date
Adam, kicking down the door: BITCH YOU WONT BELIEVE WHO I JUST MADE OUT WITH
Gansey: who?
Adam: RONAN!!!
Gansey, about to have a fucking stroke: what
Guide to Figuring out the Age of an Undated World Map.
has anyone else noticed that ants dknt carry away picnic baskets like they used to
The “getting it done in an unconventional way” method.
The “it’s not cheating to do it the easy way” method.
The “fuck what you’re supposed to do” method.
The “get stuff done while you wait” method.
The “you don’t have to do everything at once” method.
The “it doesn’t have to be permanent to be helpful” method.
The “break the task into smaller steps” method.
The “treat yourself like a pet” method.
The “it doesn’t have to be all or nothing” method.
The “put on a persona” method.
The “act like you’re filming a tutorial” method.
The “you don’t have to do it perfectly” method.
The “wait for a trigger” method.
The “do it for your future self” method.
The “might as well” method.
The “when self discipline doesn’t cut it” method.
The “taking care of yourself to take care of your pet” method.
The “make it easy” method.
The “junebugging” method.
The “just show up” method.
The “accept when you need help” method.
The “make it into a game” method.
The “everything worth doing is worth doing poorly” method.
The “trick yourself” method.
The “break it into even smaller steps” method.
The “let go of should” method.
The “your body is an animal you have to take care of” method.
The “fork theory” method.
The “effectivity over aesthetics” method.
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