Hi! I was wondering if you could do a TBB x Fem!Reader +any other clones of your choice, where they keep using pet names in mandoa like cyar'ika, mesh'la, and maybe even riduur?(because they might’ve gotten accidentally married? Love those tropes)
but the reader has no idea what they mean and that they’re pet names or that the batch likes her. Eventually she finds out of course and a bunch of stuttering cute confessions?
Your writing is so amazing and i literally can’t get enough of it! Xx
TBB x Fem!Reader
You had gotten used to the way clones talked — the gruffness, the slang, the camaraderie. But ever since you’d been working more closely with Clone Force 99, you’d noticed something… different.
They used weird words around you. Words you didn’t hear other troopers saying.
Hunter always greeted you with a gentle “Cyar’ika,” accompanied by that intense little half-smile of his.
Wrecker would beam and shout, “Mesh’la! You came!” every time you entered a room — like you were some goddess descending from the stars.
Crosshair, as always, was smug and cool, throwing in a soft “Riduur…” under his breath when he thought you weren’t listening, though you never figured out what it meant. He often smirked when you looked confused, and somehow that made it worse.
Even Tech, who rarely used nicknames at all, had let slip a casual “You’re quite remarkable, mesh’la,” when you helped him debug his datapad. He didn’t look up, but you felt the heat in his voice.
And Echo? Sweet, dependable Echo — he was the least subtle of them all.
“You alright, cyar’ika?”
“You look tired, cyar’ika.”
“Get some rest, cyar’ika.”
You were starting to think “Cyar’ika” meant your actual name.
But something was off. The others never used those words with each other. Only with you.
So, naturally, you asked Rex.
And Rex choked on his caf.
“You—what did Crosshair call you?” he coughed, wiping his chin.
You repeated it: “Rid…uur? I think? I dunno. He said it real low.”
Rex gave you the slowest blink you’d ever seen and then rubbed the bridge of his nose.
“Riduur means… spouse. As in… wife. It’s what you call your partner.”
You froze. “What?!”
“And cyar’ika?” he continued, amused. “Sweetheart. Mesh’la is ‘beautiful.’ They’re… Mando’a pet names. Very affectionate.”
The blushing.
The flashbacks.
All those words… those looks… Tech calling you remarkable like it was a scientific fact, Crosshair smirking like he had secrets, Echo’s voice dropping a full octave every time he said cyar’ika…
You marched straight into the Havoc Marauder like a woman on a mission — and promptly forgot how to speak when all five of them looked up at you.
“…You okay, mesh’la?” Hunter asked gently.
You blinked. Your voice cracked. “…You’ve been calling me sweetheart?”
The room went dead silent.
Echo dropped his ration bar.
Wrecker panicked. “Wait—you didn’t know?”
Crosshair chuckled and leaned against the wall, arms crossed. “Told you she didn’t know.”
Tech frowned at him. “Statistically, the odds of her knowing were—”
“You called me your wife,” you said, pointing at Crosshair like he’d committed a war crime.
He shrugged. “Didn’t hear you complain.”
You stammered something completely unintelligible, covering your face with both hands, and Wrecker let out the loudest, happiest laugh you’d ever heard. “So… does that mean you like us back?”
You peeked through your fingers. “…Us?”
Hunter stepped forward slowly, rubbing the back of his neck. “We all… kinda do. Like you. A lot.”
You were red. Like, fruit-on-Ryloth red. “You’re telling me five elite clones have been flirting with me in another language this whole time?!”
“…Yes,” they all mumbled at once.
Crosshair grinned like he’d won a bet. “So… Riduur?”
“Riduur?” Crosshair repeated, lifting a brow like it was nothing. Like he hadn’t just dropped a romantic thermal detonator right in front of everyone.
You stared at him. At all of them.
Hunter’s quiet guilt. Echo’s embarrassed fidgeting. Wrecker’s hopeful puppy-dog smile. Tech’s analytical interest. And Crosshair’s smug little smirk that you really wanted to slap off his face… or maybe kiss.
You swallowed. “I—I need a second.”
And then promptly turned on your heel and walked right back out of the Marauder.
⸻
You spent the rest of the day spiraling.
Sweetheart. Beautiful. Wife.
They’d been calling you those for weeks. Months, maybe. You were out here thinking it was some fun cultural expression or inside joke you weren’t in on—and it turns out you were the joke. The target. Of five clone commandos’… affection?
It didn’t feel like a joke, though. It felt sincere. Soft. Safe.
And scary.
Because you liked them. All of them. Differently, but genuinely. The thought of them caring about you—of whispering pet names they grew up hearing in the most intimate, personal ways—made your chest ache in a way you didn’t know how to handle.
⸻
The next day, you avoided them.
The next day, they let you.
The third day, Hunter found you in the mess hall, sat beside you without a word, and handed you a steaming mug of caf.
You looked at him.
He didn’t speak right away. Then: “We’re sorry. If we made you uncomfortable.”
“I’m not uncomfortable,” you blurted out. “I just… didn’t know how to react. I’m still trying to figure it out.”
Hunter nodded, eyes kind. “We can stop. The nicknames, I mean.”
You hesitated. “No. I don’t want you to stop.”
He smiled, just a little. “You sure?”
You nodded. “I think I like them. I just… I want to know what they mean now.”
⸻
So, one by one, the boys showed you.
Wrecker said “mesh’la” every time you helped him carry heavy crates, with a goofy grin that made your stomach flip.
Echo said “cyar’ika” after every quiet conversation, letting the word linger like a promise he wasn’t ready to say aloud yet.
Tech, precise as always, began to offer direct translations.
“You look stunning today, mesh’la—objectively, of course.”
Crosshair didn’t stop with “riduur.” He started calling you “cyar’ika” too—softly, in rare unguarded moments—and he never looked away when he said it. Like he meant it. Like he knew what it was doing to you.
And Hunter? Hunter started saying “ner cyar’ika.” My sweetheart.
⸻
It wasn’t instant.
But slowly, their voices stopped making you flustered—and started making you feel home.
You started saying their names softer. Started touching their arms when you passed. Started blushing less… and smiling more.
And one day, while standing beside Wrecker during maintenance, you reached up on your toes, kissed his cheek, and whispered, “Thanks, cyare.”
He blinked. His whole face lit up like a nova. “You said it back!”
Later, you caught Echo outside the ship. Nervous, swaying slightly on his heels. You pressed your hand into his and whispered, “You can keep calling me cyar’ika, you know.”
He looked down at you with wide eyes. “You really don’t mind?”
You shook your head. “I like it.”
And Tech, when you repeated “mesh’la” with a teasing little lilt, glanced at you and—just this once—forgot what he was doing.
Even Crosshair dropped his toothpick when you looked him dead in the eye and whispered: “You keep calling me your riduur. What does that make you, then?”
He blinked. Once. Then smiled. Really smiled. “Yours.”
⸻
By the time you curled up beside Hunter one quiet night, your head on his shoulder and his hand tracing slow circles on your back, he murmured “ner cyar’ika” and you didn’t freeze or stammer.
You just smiled.
Because now you knew.
And you finally, finally understood that you’d never been the joke.
You’d always been the reason they smiled.
The camp was quiet now. The chaos had died down into murmurs, tired footsteps, the clatter of armor being stripped off and stacked beside sleeping mats. She wandered through it like a ghost, feeling out of place but… not unwelcome. Not entirely.
She spotted him near the supply crates, still in his blacks, helmet off, hair mussed from the fight. Rex looked up as she approached, his posture straightening slightly like muscle memory kicked in before the rest of him caught up.
“Hey,” she said.
He didn’t smile, but his expression softened—just enough.
“Didn’t expect you to come find me,” Rex said. “Figured you’d be off the minute your boots cooled.”
“Yeah, well…” she kicked a rock with the toe of her boot. “Running hasn’t exactly worked out great for me lately.”
Rex folded his arms, waiting.
“I wanted to check on you,” she added. “See how you were holding up. After today.”
“After everything, you mean?”
She met his eyes. “Yeah.”
There was a long pause, not uncomfortable, just… heavy. She leaned against a crate beside him and crossed her arms to match his posture, head tilted up to the stars.
“You still got that scar?” she asked casually. “The one on your jaw. From the skirmish on Felucia?”
He gave her a look. “You remember that?”
“I remember a lot of things about you, Captain.”
She offered him a crooked smirk, the kind she used to wear like armor. Playful. A little bold. A spark in the rubble.
Rex didn’t return the smile—but the way he looked at her made her throat tighten.
“You think flirting with me is going to fix this?” he asked quietly.
She lost her grin.
“No,” she said. “It’s just… easier. Than everything else.”
His shoulders dropped a little, some tension leaving his frame even if the rest stayed knotted. He didn’t look angry. Just… tired.
“I missed you,” she admitted, more earnest than she meant to be. “Even when I was running. Especially then.”
Rex looked down at her—really looked—and she saw the conflict written across his face like ink on skin.
“I didn’t know where you were,” he said, voice rough. “Didn’t know if you were alive. If you were working for the Chancellor still, if you were working for anyone. It’s hard to miss someone when you don’t know if they’re already gone.”
That one hit. She nodded, eyes flicking away for a moment.
“I was scared,” she said. “Of what I was doing. Who I was becoming. Of what you’d see if you looked at me too long.”
“I saw someone who gave a damn,” Rex said. “Still do.”
She looked at him then, and for a moment, everything else—Palpatine, the Council, Cody, the kid—blurred out into silence.
He stepped closer, just slightly. She didn’t move away.
“I’m not saying it’s fixed,” he said lowly. “But I’m still here.”
She reached out, fingertips brushing his hand, testing the water like she was scared it would burn her. He let her.
“I missed you too,” she whispered.
They stood there for a while, in that silence. The tension still coiled, still unresolved—but different now. Softer.
The kind that might, with time, unravel into something real.
⸻
The shuttle touched down on Coruscant with a low hum, metallic feet clunking into the hangar platform. The ramp hissed open, revealing the cold blue glow of the Senate District skyline in the distance. She breathed it in—familiar and suffocating all at once.
Rex had disappeared into a sea of 501st troopers. Anakin and Ahsoka had gone to debrief. The kid—the kid—was somewhere out there now, no longer hers to protect, though the phantom weight of responsibility still clung to her shoulders like wet armor.
And Cody…
Cody had been quiet the whole way back. Not cold, not rude—just restrained. Professional. Distant.
She knew that look. It was the same one she wore when she was hurt but too proud to bleed out in public.
So she went looking for him.
The GAR barracks were quiet this time of day, most men off-duty or in mess. She spotted Cody’s armor first, piled neat outside a side room, the door half-cracked. She knocked once—light—and pushed the door further open.
Cody was sitting on the edge of his bunk, bare-chested, arms braced on his knees, deep in thought. He looked up, startled at first, and then his mouth pulled into something that wasn’t quite a smile.
“You look like you’re about to deliver bad news,” he said, voice low and wry.
“I’m not,” she said. “I just wanted to talk.”
He nodded, gestured to the spot beside him on the bunk.
They sat in silence for a beat. The air between them tense but not hostile.
“I don’t want things to be weird,” she said. “Between us.”
“Kind of hard for them not to be,” Cody replied, tone not sharp, just… tired.
“I know,” she said, rubbing the back of her neck. “But I’m trying. I’m done running. I just—I want to fix things. Or at least make it so we can be in the same room without all the oxygen leaving it.”
Cody huffed a small breath. “You don’t need to fix things. Just stop acting like you can flirt your way out of every mess you cause.”
That one stung, but she accepted it.
“I know,” she said softly. “I know.”
He turned to her. His eyes didn’t hold anger. They held ache. And something else—something deeper. Something he wasn’t saying.
She opened her mouth to say more—
—and the door slammed open.
“There you are!” Quinlan Vos strode in like a tide, full of unfiltered charisma and absolutely no awareness of personal boundaries.
Obi-Wan followed, much slower, brow furrowed with concern. “Apologies for the intrusion, but we’ve been looking for you.”
Cody stood, arms folding tightly across his chest, clearly not thrilled.
She didn’t move from the bed. “I’m a little busy.”
“So it seems,” Obi-Wan remarked mildly, eyes flicking between her and Cody.
Quinlan plopped down on Cody’s empty chair like he owned the place. “The Council wants to talk. They’ve got questions. About Palpatine. About the kid. About you and your… pattern of disappearing.”
She rolled her eyes. “Why do I feel like I’m constantly on trial.”
“Because you kind of are,” Quinlan said with a grin.
Obi-Wan sighed. “We’re not your enemies. But we do need to understand why you made the choices you did.”
She stood up now, shoulders stiff. “And I’m trying to explain those choices—to the people who matter to me. But you keep showing up like two banthas at a tea party.”
Cody, behind her, almost smiled.
“Can it wait?” she asked Obi-Wan directly.
He hesitated.
“…Fine,” he said at last. “But not long.”
He and Quinlan left with far more noise than they entered.
She sighed and turned back to Cody.
“…See what I mean? Never a quiet moment.”
Cody studied her, his expression unreadable. “You don’t owe them your soul.”
“No,” she said. “But maybe I owe them a piece of the truth. Just… not before I say what I need to say to you.”
Cody gave her a slow nod. “Then say it.”
She looked at him, suddenly overwhelmed by the words that clawed to the surface.
But for once—maybe for the first time—she let them stay unspoken. Let them sit there in the space between them, heavy and real and understood.
The door had long since shut behind Obi-Wan and Quinlan, the echo of their presence still lingering. But now, it was quiet again. Just her and Cody. And the weight of what she hadn’t said.
She looked up at him, heart hammering harder than it had in any firefight.
“Cody,” she began, voice low, almost unsure. “I need to say something. And it’s not fair, but it’s honest.”
He raised a brow, still standing a few feet away. Guarded, but listening.
“I love you.”
That stopped him. His arms slowly uncrossed.
“But—” she continued before he could react, “I love Rex too.”
Cody’s face didn’t shift. Didn’t wince. Didn’t soften. Just—stilled.
She took a step closer. “And I don’t know what that says about me, or what it means, but I’m tired of pretending I only feel one thing at a time. I tried to choose. I did. But every time I think I have, I see the other one and it just—breaks something in me.”
He let out a long, quiet breath.
“I’m not asking you to be okay with it,” she added quickly. “I’m not even asking you for anything. I just needed to say it. To stop lying about how I feel and hoping it’ll get easier if I just shove it down hard enough.”
A long silence passed.
Then Cody finally spoke. “You’re right. It’s not fair.”
She nodded. “I know.”
“But it’s real.” His voice had softened, barely above a whisper. “And I’d rather have your truth than someone else’s lie.”
Tears burned her eyes, sudden and hot. She didn’t cry. Not for years. But this—this kind of vulnerability? This was harder than bleeding out in the field.
Cody stepped forward, gently touching her cheek with a calloused hand. “You deserve a love that doesn’t make you choose.”
She leaned into his touch, even as guilt twisted inside her.
“Rex deserves to hear it too,” Cody added after a beat. “But for now—just… thank you. For being honest.”
⸻
The Jedi Council chamber was quiet in the way only heavy judgment could make it.
Sunlight filtered through the high windows, casting long shadows across the room where the Masters sat in their semi-circle. Windu, Yoda, Plo Koon, Ki-Adi-Mundi, Luminara, Kit Fisto, and Obi-Wan.
She stood in the center, still dressed in half of her mission gear, the other half forgotten in the chaos of being summoned straight off the landing pad.
Mace Windu leaned forward first. “We appreciate your cooperation, though your presence here is long overdue.”
“I didn’t think I was a priority,” she said dryly.
“You’ve been a priority since the moment you vanished with a Force-sensitive child under mysterious circumstances,” Ki-Adi-Mundi snapped.
She raised her chin. “I didn’t kidnap him. I saved him.”
“From whom?” Luminara pressed. “From the Chancellor himself?”
“No,” she lied smoothly. “From a bounty. Someone—anonymous—put a price on the kid’s head. I took the job, found the kid, couldn’t go through with it. So I ran.”
Windu’s gaze was steel. “You expect us to believe a bounty hunter with personal access to the Chancellor just happened to take that contract?”
“I was close to Palpatine,” she admitted. “He trusted me. I never asked why. But I’m not loyal to him—not anymore. I saw enough to know I was a pawn. I just didn’t know what kind of game.”
“And the child?” Yoda asked softly.
“I gave him up. To the Republic. He’s safer now than he ever was with me. But I won’t apologize for keeping him alive.”
Kit Fisto watched her with new eyes. Quieter than before. Maybe… less suspicious. Maybe not.
“You told me once you feared the Chancellor,” Windu said, looking at her directly. “Do you still?”
“I fear what he’s capable of,” she said. “But I fear myself more. I made too many decisions in his shadow. I want to start making my own.”
The room was silent for a long moment.
Then Yoda turned to the others. “Much darkness clouds the future, but truth… glimpses of it, I sense in her words.”
Windu nodded. “We will deliberate. In the meantime, you are not to leave the planet. Is that understood?”
“Crystal,” she said, and turned to walk out, her heart thudding.
She had told some truth, enough to avoid chains—but not enough to put the game to rest. Not yet.
⸻
The summons came before sunrise.
No official escort this time. Just a short, encrypted message on her private channel—a voice she knew too well, cold and commanding:
“Come. Now.”
She hadn’t slept anyway. After the Council interrogation, after saying too much to Cody—and not enough to Rex—her nerves were frayed like wires sparking against metal.
The Senate building was quiet when she arrived, its corridors dim and eerie. Palpatine’s chambers were even darker—lit only by the soft red of Coruscanti dawn bleeding through heavy curtains and the low hum of security panels locking behind her.
He was waiting, seated in his throne-like chair, hands folded, hood drawn low over his brow.
“You lied to the Council,” he said without preamble. His tone held no accusation—only satisfaction.
She didn’t respond.
“You said nothing of my involvement. Not a single hint. You protected me.” A faint smile curled at the edges of his mouth. “That kind of loyalty is… rare.”
She shifted her weight, unsettled. “I didn’t do it for you.”
“But you did it well.” He stood slowly, walking toward her with quiet, measured steps. “The Jedi are grasping at shadows. And now they trust you just enough to leave their guard down. Perfect positioning, wouldn’t you say?”
“I didn’t come here to be your spy.”
He chuckled. “No. You came here to survive. And you’ve done that—exceptionally.”
She said nothing, jaw tight.
Palpatine clasped his hands behind his back. “The child you so kindly spared… he will serve a greater purpose than you could ever imagine. The Force hums in him—volatile, angry, raw. He will be an excellent assassin one day.”
Her throat went dry. “He’s not a weapon.”
“He’s an asset,” he corrected coolly.
“He has a name,” she snapped, louder than she meant to. “Kes. His name is Kes.”
Palpatine paused. Then, slowly, he turned to face her fully. “Names,” he said, voice lower now, more dangerous. “Names are tools. Just like loyalty. Just like you.”
Her hands curled into fists.
“I spared him,” she said, steadying her voice. “I hid him. I protected him. That doesn’t make me loyal to you.”
“No,” he said, almost fondly. “But it proves you can be used. Even against your will.”
She flinched. Because it was true.
Palpatine leaned closer, his presence overwhelming. “The boy will be trained. Molded. And when the time comes, he will take a life with his own hands. You will see.”
She met his gaze. “Over my dead body.”
The Sith Lord only smiled. “If necessary.”
⸻
She didn’t remember much of the walk back from the Senate building. The city buzzed around her, speeder traffic whipping by overhead, durasteel walkways trembling with the movement of life, but she moved through it all like a ghost.
Palpatine’s words still burned behind her eyes.
He will take a life with his own hands. You will see.
No. No, not if she could help it.
She barely registered her fists slamming against the barracks door until it opened. Rex stood there, still half-dressed in blacks and greys, fresh from training. His expression shifted from surprise to something more serious the moment he saw her face.
“I need to talk to you,” she said, pushing past him into the room.
He closed the door slowly behind her. “I figured.”
She paced the floor, hands on her hips. “I told Cody I loved him.”
Rex blinked, stiffening slightly. “Okay…”
She turned toward him, eyes sharp, voice louder now—heated. “And I love you, too. I love you, Rex. Not in some vague, flirty way. I mean it. I feel it in my chest like a damn explosion.”
He stared at her, caught off guard. “You’re angry.”
“I am angry,” she said, voice cracking. “But not at you.”
He stepped closer, expression softening as he tried to piece her together. “What’s wrong with you?”
Her mouth opened. Closed. The breath that came out after was shaky, jagged. “It’s the kid. It’s Kes. I don’t trust he’s safe.”
“I thought—he’s with the Republic now, right?”
She gave a bitter laugh. “Safe? From him?” Her voice dropped. “He wants to train him. Turn him into some twisted weapon. He called him an asset, Rex.”
Rex’s brows furrowed. “Who?”
“He’s not a tool. He’s a child. And I think… I might be the only person who can actually keep him safe.”
Rex looked at her for a long time, something unreadable in his eyes. “You still working for the Chancellor?”
“No,” she said quietly. “Not in the way I used to. But I can’t just walk away from this, not now. I know too much. And I know what he’s planning.”
Rex reached out, gently taking her arm. “Then what are you going to do?”
She looked at his hand, then into his eyes.
“I don’t know,” she whispered. “But whatever it is… I don’t think I’m coming back from it.”
⸻
The barracks were still, the artificial lights dimmed to simulate night. Most of the 501st were out or asleep, and for once, no one was shouting over a game of sabacc or sparring in the hall.
Rex sat on the edge of his bunk, elbows on his knees, her words echoing in his skull like distant artillery.
I love you, Rex.
He scrubbed a hand over his face, jaw tight. There were thousands of things he wanted to feel about it—pride, warmth, something like victory. But it came with a storm he didn’t know how to name.
She’d told Cody the same thing. She didn’t want just one of them.
He could’ve handled that. Maybe. They were soldiers—brothers—used to sharing everything. But this wasn’t a blaster or a battlefield.
This was her.
What kept him anchored to the floor, instead of pacing the room or sending a message to Cody to yell at him for no good reason, was the other thing she said. The thing that mattered more than love or jealousy or pride.
He called him an asset. I think I’m the only one who can keep him safe.
Kes. The kid. The Force-sensitive child she’d stolen, protected, run with, lied for.
And now she was talking like she’d disappear again. Like she had to.
Rex leaned back, exhaling slowly, head resting against the cool durasteel wall. He stared at the ceiling, mind ticking over the gaps. She hadn’t just been a pawn. Not really. She’d been close to Palpatine. Trusted. Useful. And now she was unraveling from the inside out, spiraling between duty, guilt, and love.
He didn’t blame her for loving Cody.
Didn’t even blame her for loving him, if he was being honest.
But what was killing him was the way she looked when she said she might not come back. Like it was already decided.
Rex sat forward again, elbows digging into his thighs. He could still smell her on his skin—warmth and dust and a hint of whatever Corellian brandy she’d drowned herself in last night.
He didn’t know what scared him more.
That she’d leave again.
Or that she wouldn’t.
And when she finally did make her move—when she ran headfirst into whatever hell she was walking toward—he wasn’t sure if he’d chase after her, or let her go.
But he was sure of one thing.
She didn’t have to face it alone.
Not if he had anything to say about it.
⸻
Cody stood in the shadow of the veranda outside the Jedi Temple. It was late. Not quite night, not quite morning—the sky caught in that soft, silver pre-dawn hue. And Coruscant, the city that never truly slept, hummed below like it didn’t care about anyone’s heartbreak.
He hadn’t gone back to his quarters. Couldn’t. Not after what she’d said.
I love you.
And then—I love Rex too.
He leaned forward, arms braced on the railing, the wind tugging at the edges of his armour.
The words weren’t what haunted him. Not really. He knew her. Knew how fiercely she loved—how wildly her loyalty curved into everything she touched. Of course she’d fall for Rex too. Of course it wouldn’t be clean, or easy, or fair.
He didn’t even blame her for it.
But it stung, deeper than blaster fire. Not because she loved them both—but because even now, after everything, she still looked like she was halfway out the door. Like her mind had already started packing bags she didn’t plan to unpack again.
Kes.
Cody’s fingers flexed on the railing.
The boy’s name hadn’t been spoken when she’d told her lie to the Council—but he’d heard the truth in her voice, beneath every beat of it. She’d kept him alive. Protected him. Cared for him in a way no bounty hunter had any right to.
Palpatine’s orders or not, she’d chosen the kid. Chosen to lie, run, risk everything.
That terrified him.
Because if she was willing to walk away from him for the kid… she’d do it again. In a heartbeat.
And he didn’t know if he could survive her leaving twice.
He exhaled slowly, the wind catching the breath like smoke. He could see himself from the outside—Commander Cody, poised, sharp, unreadable. A model soldier.
But inside? He was chaos.
He wanted to go to her room. Say something—anything. Ask her to choose him. Or don’t. Or promise to come back. Or stay.
But he wouldn’t beg.
She had enough people trying to pull her in opposite directions. She didn’t need another weight on her shoulders.
Still… he couldn’t help but wonder if she was thinking about him now. If she was lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, just as lost.
Don’t run again, he thought. Not from this. Not from me.
And if she did?
He’d find her.
And bring her home himself.
⸻
The air in her apartment was heavy.
It was always quiet before a storm. Before chaos. Before death.
She moved like a shadow, deliberate and silent, pulling her gear piece by piece from beneath the floorboards. Her knives. Her blaster. Her comm jammer. Her datapad with every possible layout of the facility burned into its memory.
She was going in alone.
There was no other way.
Kes was being held somewhere deep within the restricted levels of the Republic Intelligence Annex—a place so far off the grid it didn’t technically exist. He hadn’t shown up on any of the usual rosters. No holos. No files. Just whispers. Rumors.
She didn’t trust anyone else to get him out.
And the Chancellor… Palpatine.
She didn’t care if it was madness. She didn’t care if it meant her own death. The moment he’d looked at Kes like he was a tool, a weapon, an asset, something in her broke.
She wasn’t a Jedi. She didn’t have to play by their rules.
She’d already made up her mind.
The door panel chirped, breaking the silence.
She froze.
One hand gripped the vibroblade still resting on the kitchen bench. Her heart pounded hard, but her face remained unreadable.
Another chime. This time more insistent.
She took a breath. Stepped toward the door.
It slid open.
And there they were.
Cody. Rex.
She should’ve known.
Both of them stood just outside, dressed like they hadn’t had time to change out of their armor. Faces hard, eyes flicking past her to the gear stacked on the counter behind her.
Cody spoke first. “You’re leaving.”
She didn’t answer. Not with words. She turned her back on them both, walking toward her gear like she hadn’t just been caught mid-plan.
“I don’t have time to explain,” she said as she fastened her utility belt.
“We figured,” Rex said. “So explain on the way.”
“No.” Her voice was sharp, steel underneath. “You don’t get to follow me this time.”
Cody stepped inside. “We didn’t follow you. We found you. Big difference.”
She spun, eyes locking onto Cody. “You don’t get to be the voice of reason right now, Cody. Not when I’m going to kill your Chancellor.”
The silence hit like a thermal detonator.
Rex looked at her like he hadn’t expected to hear her say it aloud.
Cody didn’t flinch.
“I’m going to get Kes out,” she said, quieter now. “And then I’m going to end this. Before it starts.”
“You think assassinating the Chancellor is going to stop what’s coming?” Rex’s voice was tight. “Do you even know what that’ll unleash?”
“I don’t care,” she snapped. “He’s using that kid. He’s manipulating all of us. And the longer I wait, the worse it gets.”
Cody took a single step closer. Not threatening—just there. Solid. Like he always was.
“You’ll die,” he said. “You know that, right?”
She nodded. “I made peace with that a long time ago.”
Rex stepped forward now, voice low, fierce. “Then let us help. Let us at least stand with you.”
She stared at them both. Her throat tightened.
She wanted to say yes. Stars, she wanted to say yes so badly.
But—
“If either of you die because of me,” she said, “I’ll never forgive myself.”
“We’re soldiers,” Cody said. “We’ve already made peace with dying.”
“But not with you dying alone,” Rex added.
The silence stretched long. Her eyes burned.
She turned away, back to her weapons. She was shaking, just slightly.
And then… she spoke.
“No.”
They both stilled.
She faced them now, eyes sharper than either had ever seen. “I can’t let either of you come with me.”
“Why?” Rex asked. “Because it’s dangerous? We live in danger. That’s not an excuse.”
“It’s not about danger,” she said. Her voice cracked, just slightly. “It’s about you. About him. About both of you. I love you—both of you—and I will not be the reason your stories end in a hallway you were never meant to be in.”
Cody stepped closer. “That’s not your choice to make.”
“It is this time,” she said. “Because if I lose either of you, I don’t just lose a soldier. I lose the only damn thing I’ve got left in this kriffed-up galaxy.”
Neither of them spoke.
And then, gently, she picked up her blaster, slid it into its holster, and looked at them for what might’ve been the last time.
“You don’t have to understand it,” she said. “Just… let me do this. Alone.”
She didn’t wait for an answer. She didn’t want to hear them fight her on it.
She just stepped out the back door, into the night.
And left them both behind.
⸻
She didn’t go to the facility alone.
Not exactly.
She had a contact.
Someone who didn’t care for the Republic, the Jedi, or much of anything beyond credits and personal satisfaction.
Cad Bane.
She hated him.
He’d say the feeling was mutual.
But she also knew he’d show up if the job was dirty enough, personal enough—and promised to make things just complicated enough to be interesting.
So, when she stood in the shadows near the Coruscant underworld comm relay, keyed in the frequency and said nothing but “I’m cashing it in”, there was a beat of silence, followed by his dry, smug voice.
“Took you long enough. Where’s the target?”
She sent him the encrypted drop zone coordinates, along with a note:
If I’m not there by this time tomorrow, I’m dead. Take the kid somewhere safe.
He didn’t respond. That meant he understood.
She climbed the side of the Republic Intelligence Annex like she had done it a thousand times before.
Because she had.
Not this exact building, no. But enough like it. Enough to know how their sensor blind spots layered. Enough to know the door panels ran off an old auxiliary power line she could override with a reprogrammed comlink. Enough to slip past the outer perimeter before anyone ever saw her coming.
The inside was colder. Cleaner. Sharp-edged metal and flickering overhead lights. It wasn’t meant to feel human. It was meant to strip identity. The place was surgical in its cruelty.
She moved like smoke. Swift. Silent. Lethal.
Floor by floor, she moved through the corridors.
Until she saw it.
The hallway. The black-glass door with the lock system coded to bioscans. The child’s name wasn’t on any sign, but she knew he was behind it.
She cracked her knuckles, pulled a thumb-sized detonator from her belt, and slipped it into the seam of the scanner.
A flicker. A soft click. And then—
Boom.
The door gave.
She sprinted in through smoke and static.
There he was.
Kes.
Slumped on the floor, eyes wide, body curled up like he was used to expecting violence. His force signature was alive—but dimmed. Buried.
She dropped to her knees and pulled him into her arms.
He looked up at her. “You came.”
“Of course I did.”
“I thought you were dead.”
“Not yet.”
She took out a stimpak and injected it into his arm. “We have to move. Can you walk?”
He nodded. She didn’t wait. She pulled him to his feet and wrapped his small arm around her neck.
The sirens started.
Of course they did.
Guards stormed the lower halls.
Blaster fire lit up behind them, but she didn’t stop. She ran, dragging the kid through maintenance shafts, down an auxiliary lift, bursting into the speeder bay just in time to hijack a transport and shoot out into the traffic lanes above the city.
She weaved and twisted through Coruscant’s sky, sirens behind her, and a fragile hope burning in her chest.
Kes was safe.
For now.
They landed in a scrap yard on the edge of the underworld district, just near the slums. The air was thick with fuel and metal and smoke. She tucked Kes behind a decaying repulsor rig and handed him a stolen ration bar.
“If I don’t come back by tomorrow,” she said, crouching beside him, “Cad Bane will find you. He has the coordinates. You run. You survive. You hear me?”
“You’re not gonna die,” Kes whispered.
She smirked faintly. “Kid, I’ve been trying to die for years. But you… you’re different. You’ve got a future.”
She squeezed his shoulder, then vanished into the shadows.
She had one more stop to make.
And Palpatine wouldn’t see it coming.
⸻
She didn’t knock.
She didn’t need to.
The side entrance to the Chancellor’s private chambers peeled open after her third override attempt, a hiss of smoke and whirring gears inviting her into the lion’s den. Every step she took echoed like thunder through the polished marbled halls, golden-red light casting long, terrible shadows over everything.
It felt wrong.
He wasn’t supposed to be alone.
He never was.
But the throne sat empty in the center of the chamber—its occupant standing by the wide viewport, hands clasped behind his back, city lights dancing across his reflection.
“You’re late,” Palpatine said without turning.
She drew her blaster.
Didn’t speak.
Didn’t hesitate.
She fired.
The bolt twisted in midair—curved—like the space between her and him had turned to oil. It splashed against the wall, leaving a crater, and Palpatine finally turned to face her, slow and measured.
He was smiling.
“Predictable,” he whispered.
Lightning surged from his fingers before she could blink.
It hit her like a wrecking ball.
She hit the ground screaming, bones screaming with her. Her blaster flew out of reach. Her limbs convulsed—vision swimming. The pain was like drowning in fire.
“You think yourself above your role? A pawn with a little sentiment?” Palpatine hissed, walking toward her, cloak dragging behind him like smoke.
He leaned down.
“I gave you purpose. I gave you everything.”
Her hand slipped to her boot. Blade.
“You gave me rot,” she spat, and slashed.
The blade caught his cheek.
He didn’t even flinch.
But he bled.
That was enough.
He threw her across the room with a flick of his wrist. She shattered a statue. She couldn’t breathe.
The alarms began to blare.
Corrie Guard. Jedi. Everyone was coming.
“You won’t get far,” he said, voice like thunder, like prophecy. “Run, girl. Run until the stars burn out. They’ll all be hunting you now.”
She didn’t answer.
She crawled, dragged herself to her feet, one hand clutching her ribs. She didn’t even remember how she escaped—smoke bombs, a hidden exit route, a chase through skylanes with every siren screaming her name. The Guard was relentless. She saw Cody. She saw Fox. She even saw Kit—his face torn between duty and disbelief.
She didn’t have time to process it.
She just ran.
By the time she reached the rendezvous point—blood in her mouth, cloak torn, and the weight of failure dragging behind her like a corpse—Cad Bane was already there. So was Kes.
“You look like hell,” Bane drawled.
“Bite me,” she rasped, grabbing Kes’s hand. “We’re leaving.”
Bane handed her coordinates to a small craft already programmed and pre-fueled. She didn’t say thank you. He didn’t expect it.
They jumped into hyperspace an hour later.
⸻
The stars faded into the dusty pink of dawn as they crested over the hill that led to the farm.
It hadn’t changed.
Still crooked fences. Still half-dead crops. Still peace in its imperfection.
Kes looked up at her, his big eyes shadowed with exhaustion.
“Why the farm?” he asked softly.
She breathed in the air, cracked and burned and hers.
“We have our Loth cat to find,” she said.
Kes blinked. “That’s… that’s it?”
She half-smiled. “It’s as good a reason as any.”
The war had followed her.
Death had nearly claimed her.
But for now, in this quiet stretch of forgotten land, with the boy she’d risked everything for beside her, she finally let herself breathe.
Just once.
Before the storm returned.
⸻
The silence in the Jedi High Council chamber was so dense it felt like suffocation.
The doors had shut behind Master Windu with a hiss. He remained standing for a moment before stepping into the center, his brow tight with what could only be called restrained fury. Around him, the Masters sat in their usual solemn arrangement—Yoda, Obi-Wan, Plo Koon, Ki-Adi-Mundi, Shaak Ti, Kit Fisto, and the rest. The air was thick with tension, laced with the sharp edges of disbelief and bitter revelation.
“She tried to kill the Chancellor,” Ki-Adi-Mundi said first. Cold. Certain. “This is beyond treason. It’s an act of war.”
“She also escaped,” Master Shaak Ti added, her voice quieter, more contemplative. “From a secure facility. With a child Palpatine has repeatedly refused to explain.”
“The same child she risked her life to hide for months,” Kit said calmly, though his gaze flickered toward Yoda, seeking his temperature on this. “She did not kill him. She ran. Hid. Protected him.”
“She lied to this Council,” Mundi snapped. “On multiple occasions.”
“As do many who fear the truth will be used against them,” Kit countered.
Windu raised a hand. Silence reclaimed the room.
Obi-Wan leaned forward then, voice calm but lined with suspicion. “What was she doing in the Chancellor’s private tower in the first place? Without clearance. Without authorization.”
“She was summoned,” Windu answered.
That landed like a blow.
Even Yoda stirred at that, tapping his gimer stick once against the floor. “Truth, this is?”
Windu nodded once. “The Chancellor requested her presence. Privately. No report filed. No witnesses. Just hours before the attempt.”
A heavy silence followed.
“She did not go there to kill him,” Kit said. “Not originally.”
“She still tried,” Plo Koon said softly. “But perhaps not without cause.”
Yoda closed his eyes. For a moment, the ancient Jedi looked every bit as old as the war.
“Seen much, we have. But seen enough, we have not.”
“Agreed,” Windu said. “The fact that she is still alive… it complicates this. If she had truly wanted him dead, if she had planned this with precision—she wouldn’t have failed.”
“She wasn’t aiming to succeed,” Obi-Wan murmured. “She was desperate.”
“And she escaped with the child,” Shaak Ti added. “Which the Chancellor has referred to, multiple times, as an asset. Not a person.”
Yoda’s eyes opened.
“Uncover the truth, we must. Speak to the Chancellor… again, we shall.”
Mundi stood, disbelief etched across his face. “You cannot be suggesting that he is the problem.”
Yoda met his gaze.
“The Force suggests… many things.”
⸻
The barracks were quiet for once. No drills, no blaster fire, no shouting across bunks. Just the buzz of overhead lights and the low hum of Coruscant’s cityscape outside the narrow windows.
Cody sat on the edge of a durasteel bench, still in partial armor, helmet discarded at his feet. He hadn’t spoken in what felt like an hour.
Rex stood nearby, leaning against the wall, arms crossed tightly. There was a long, bitter silence between them—one that came after too many emotions had been left unsaid for far too long.
“She almost died,” Rex said finally, voice low.
“She should be dead,” Cody answered without looking at him. “Attempting to assassinate the Chancellor? Alone? That’s suicide.”
“She’s alive,” Rex replied, softer now. “But she ran. Again.”
Cody let out a tired exhale, dragging a hand through his short hair. “She always runs.”
There was no malice in his voice. Just grief.
They were quiet again before Cody finally broke it.
“You loved her.”
Rex didn’t flinch. “Yeah. You did too.”
Cody nodded once, jaw tight. “I kept telling myself it was duty. Obsession. That I could let her go. But I never really wanted to.”
Rex stared at the floor. “She told me she loved me. Right before she disappeared.”
“She told me the same.” Cody gave a humorless laugh. “Then said she wanted both of us.”
Rex looked up. Their eyes met, and for the first time, neither of them looked away.
“And if things were different?” Rex asked.
Cody shook his head. “If things were different, we wouldn’t be in this war. We wouldn’t be soldiers. She wouldn’t be a target. That kid wouldn’t be hunted.”
Silence again.
“She was trying to do the right thing,” Rex said. “Even when it meant becoming the villain in everyone’s eyes.”
“Even ours,” Cody added quietly. “And now she’s out there. Hunted. Alone. Again.”
Rex stepped forward, tension rolling off him like a crashing tide. “I want to go after her.”
“So do I,” Cody said, standing.
The two commanders stared at one another—two halves of the same loyalty.
But they both knew the truth: chasing her meant turning against everything they’d been raised to serve.
The Republic. The Jedi. The Chancellor.
Everything.
“She’s worth it,” Rex said eventually.
Cody didn’t answer right away.
But the look in his eyes said everything.
⸻
The Chancellor’s office was dimmed, blinds drawn. Only Coruscant’s dull, flickering lights spilled shadows against the walls, mixing with the warm glow of red and gold decor.
Palpatine sat with folded hands, the lines in his face calm, unreadable.
Mace Windu stood at the center of the room, flanked by Yoda and Ki-Adi-Mundi. Plo Koon lingered near the window. Kit Fisto remained closer to the rear, saying nothing, watching everything.
“She nearly assassinated you,” Windu said. “And yet you still refuse to pursue her with the full force of the Republic?”
Palpatine offered a diplomatic smile. “She was misguided. Broken. This was the action of a lost, frightened woman.”
“Frightened women don’t break into highly classified facilities with bounty hunters and walk out with a Force-sensitive child,” Ki-Adi-Mundi cut in.
“Nor do they try to kill the Supreme Chancellor,” Windu added.
“Attempt to,” Palpatine corrected softly.
The silence that followed was sharp.
“Tell us, Chancellor,” Yoda finally spoke, his voice calm but piercing. “This woman. Long known to you, she is. Trusted her, you have. But trust her still, do you?”
Palpatine’s eyes narrowed slightly. “She was once loyal. Brave. Unafraid to do what others would not. I used her, yes. But perhaps I was mistaken in believing she could survive the strain of such secrets.”
“Secrets you still refuse to share,” Kit spoke for the first time. “You gave her access to military intel. Brought her into council-level missions. And yet she was never a Jedi, never Republic command, never even vetted. Why?”
Palpatine’s expression darkened, just for a moment. “Because she was effective. Because she could go where others could not. Because she understood what was at stake.”
“And now?” Windu asked.
“She’s dangerous,” Palpatine answered flatly. “And broken. Likely unstable. If she comes for the child again, she will be dealt with accordingly.”
“The child is safe now,” Yoda said.
“Is he?” Palpatine asked mildly. “With a mark on his back and half the galaxy looking for him?”
“You put that mark on him,” Windu said. “You sent her after him to begin with.”
For a moment, silence cracked like ice between them.
Palpatine didn’t blink. “That accusation is as reckless as it is unfounded.”
“We’re done playing blind,” Kit said. “You’ve kept her under your protection long enough. Whatever game you were playing, it’s cost lives.”
Palpatine stood. “I have no more information to offer you. If she resurfaces, she will be arrested. Until then, the matter is closed.”
The Jedi exchanged glances.
But no one believed that.
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stop asking “is this good?” and start asking “did it cause emotional damage?” that’s how you know.
You gonna let a bitch with Spider Man- Into the Spider Verse in her top 4 speak to you that way??
Lyco woke up and chose violence
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me?? drawing angsty clone wars art?? in this economy?? more likely than you’d think.
(sorta-redraw of this thing from a year ago)
|❤️ = Romantic | 🌶️= smut or smut implied |🏡= platonic |
Commander Fox
- x Singer/PA Reader pt.1❤️
- x Singer/PA Reader pt.2❤️
- x Singer/PA Reader pt.3❤️
- x Singer/PA Reader pt.4❤️
- x Caf shop owner reader ❤️
- x reader “command and consequence”❤️
- x Reader “Command and Consequence pt.2”❤️
- x Senator Reader “Red and Loyal” multiple parts ❤️
- “Red Lines” multiple parts
- “soft spot” ❤️
Commander Thorn
- x Senator Reader “Collateral Morals” multiple parts❤️
- x Senator Reader “the lesser of two wars” multiple parts ❤️
Sergeant Hound
- X Reader “Grizzer’s Choice”
Overall Material List
Commander Neyo x Reader
You saw him before he ever ordered a drink.
Most clones came into 79’s loud, rowdy, aching for some distraction. But he walked in alone—always alone—helmet tucked under his arm. He wore that long coat like armor, even off duty, shoulders squared like he was ready for a fight no one else could see. He never smiled. Not once.
You didn’t ask his name. You just called him “the usual?” and he’d nod once, wordless. Whisky. Neat. Never touched the beer.
He sat at the far end of the bar, not too close to anyone, but never hiding. Just… existing in the silence between laughs and music and the rest of the Guard forgetting the war for five minutes. He never joined them. Just drank. Eyes heavy. Face unreadable.
You learned to stop wiping the counter when you passed him. He didn’t like the sudden movement. You figured that out after the first night, when his hand twitched toward the blaster holstered at his side.
Some clones called him Neyo. Commander. You didn’t use it. He didn’t correct you either way.
“You ever smile?” you asked once, half-joking, late in the night when the place had thinned out and the hum of the room softened. You were stacking glasses, looking at him across the lip of the bar.
He didn’t look up. “Not much to smile about.”
You let that hang. You knew a man carrying ghosts when you saw one.
“Yeah. I get that.”
He glanced at you then, just once. A flicker. Like he didn’t expect to be understood. You didn’t need to tell him your story—he didn’t want it, probably—but that look said he clocked it. That you weren’t like the others either.
You lived in the same city, drank the same watered-down liquor, but both of you were walking some kind of empty road no one else could see.
For a long time, you just stood in silence. Him with his drink. You with your rag and your thoughts.
Finally, he said, “I come here because it’s quiet. Even when it’s loud. You know?”
“Yeah,” you said softly. “It’s a good place to feel alone. But not… completely.”
He blinked, slow. “Yeah. Something like that.”
He didn’t say thank you. You didn’t expect him to. But he came back the next night. And the next.
Always alone. Always quiet. But now, when he sat down, he looked at you first.
Not a smile. But maybe something close.
⸻
He didn’t come back for two weeks.
You didn’t ask where he went. You knew better than to ask questions like that. Especially with the GAR—especially with him.
But when he came back, he had blood on his gloves. Not his. You could tell by the way he moved.
You poured his drink before he reached the bar.
“Rough one?” you asked, voice low, like if you spoke too loud it might break whatever fragile tether kept him standing upright.
He sat. Took the glass. Didn’t answer right away.
“Lost a good man.”
You nodded. “They always are.”
A long silence followed. The kind that settled in your chest.
“They say we’re not supposed to get attached.” His voice was flat, but his hands were tight around the glass. “Doesn’t matter. You feel it anyway.”
You didn’t say I’m sorry. That phrase meant nothing in a place like this. Instead, you grabbed another glass and poured one for yourself.
“To the good ones,” you said, raising it halfway.
He didn’t lift his, just looked at you. Then, after a second, knocked it back.
That became a new ritual. Not every time. Just sometimes. When the grief sat too heavy in his coat.
Over time, you learned the little things.
He preferred the quiet of the back booth when the place wasn’t packed. He never danced, never flirted, didn’t touch the food. When the music got too loud or too fast, he’d drift outside for air. You started meeting him out there with a second drink, standing beside him under the flickering streetlamp, neither of you talking unless the silence needed it.
“Most people see clones as one thing,” you said once, after a few too many customers had made too many dumb jokes about regs. “But you’re all different. You especially.”
He stared ahead, helmet under his arm again, jaw tight. “Doesn’t matter if we are. Not to the people who give the orders.”
You looked at him. “Does it matter to you?”
That made him pause.
“Yes,” he said finally. Then added, “I remember every face I’ve lost. That’s how I know I’m still me.”
And that—more than any long-winded speech—told you everything you needed to know about him.
He wasn’t a man of many words. But what he gave, he meant.
And still, he never stayed long. One night here, three days gone. A week of silence, then another appearance. No promises. No warnings.
But when he did come in, he’d glance toward the bar before scanning the room. Like maybe, just maybe, he was hoping you’d still be there.
You always were.
One night, close to closing, the place was empty. Rain tapped at the windows, slow and rhythmic. Neyo was sitting at his usual spot, coat slung over the chair.
You brought him his drink, and this time, slid a datapad across the bar.
“What’s this?” he asked.
“A list,” you said. “Of my shifts. So you don’t have to wonder.”
He looked at it. Then at you.
That unreadable look again.
You smiled. “I know you won’t always show up. But if you do… I’ll be here.”
His fingers grazed the pad, slow. He didn’t smile. But he held your gaze a little longer this time.
“Thanks,” he said quietly. A rare thing, that word.
You poured him another drink and stood across from him, matching his silence.
The war hadn’t ended. The streets were still cracked. The dreams were still broken. But for now, in this little corner of the galaxy, you both had somewhere to walk that wasn’t so lonely.
⸻
Neyo wasn’t the kind of man who noticed absence.
He was trained to move forward. To endure loss like gravity—constant, inevitable, unavoidable.
But when he walked into 79’s that night and saw someone else behind the bar, something shifted.
She was too talkative. Young. Smiled too much. Had never poured him a drink before, and made it obvious by asking, “What’ll it be, sir?”
Sir.
He blinked. Something cold crept up his spine, not fear, not anger—just dissonance.
He sat down anyway. Same stool. Same spot.
“Whiskey. Neat.”
She nodded, turned, poured. A splash too much.
He looked at the drink. Didn’t touch it.
You never asked what he wanted. You already knew.
“Is [Y/N] around?” he asked, voice low, forced casual.
The bartender blinked. “Oh—they called in sick tonight. First time I’ve worked with their section, actually.”
Called in sick.
He sat back slowly, fingers tightening just slightly on the glass. He told himself it didn’t matter. People got sick. People missed shifts.
But you never had before.
He stayed longer than usual that night, even though everything felt… wrong. The lights too bright. The music too upbeat. He didn’t finish his drink. Just let it sit there, the amber catching light, untouched and warm.
The new bartender tried to make conversation once—asked something about the war. He ignored her.
Eventually, he stood, paid without a word, and walked out into the rain.
He didn’t know where he was going until he got there—corner street, flickering streetlamp, just outside the side entrance. Where you used to stand with him when it got too loud.
You weren’t there, of course.
He leaned against the wall anyway.
Rain pattered onto his shoulders. Steam curled off the street like breath.
He didn’t understand it—why the night felt heavier without you in it. He didn’t have the words for that kind of absence. But it gnawed at him, that sudden space you left behind. The silence you weren’t filling.
He looked down at the datapad in his coat. The one with your shift list, still saved.
Tomorrow, you’d be back. Probably.
And if you weren’t… he didn’t want to think about that.
⸻
You came back on a quiet night.
No fanfare. No apology. Just walked in through the back door, tied your apron, and started cleaning a glass like you hadn’t missed a beat.
But Neyo saw it.
The way your eyes didn’t search for him first. The way your smile didn’t quite reach your eyes.
When he took his usual seat, you were already pouring his drink. But your hands moved slower.
“You were gone,” he said, voice steady.
You nodded. “Yeah. Needed a night.”
He didn’t reply. Just watched you slide the glass across to him, fingers brushing, not quite touching.
Then you said it—quietly, like it was a confession.
“I handed in my resignation.”
He blinked once. “What?”
“I start somewhere new next week. Smaller place. Little more out of the way. Less noise.” You looked at him, trying to read him like you always did, but his expression didn’t shift. “I just… I needed a change.”
A long silence followed. You hated the way it stretched.
Finally, he asked, “Where?”
You told him the name of the place. A lounge bar tucked into one of the upper levels—not exactly seedy, but not exactly clone-friendly either.
He stared at his drink. “They don’t serve clones there.”
Your breath caught. “Yeah, I know.”
Another silence.
“I didn’t choose it because of that,” you said quickly. “It’s just… different. It’s quiet. Thought maybe I’d try something new.”
He didn’t look at you.
“You won’t see me there,” he said plainly. Not cruel. Just fact.
You nodded. “I figured.”
You wanted to say more—to explain that it wasn’t about him, that you weren’t abandoning him, that the weight of every war-worn story and every heavy silence was starting to drown you. But you didn’t. Because that would be unfair. Because you knew what he’d say.
He lifted the glass and drank. Then sat it back down with a soft clink.
“When?”
“Three days.”
He gave a short nod.
You looked at him for a long time. “I’ll miss this.”
He didn’t answer.
But his jaw clenched. Just barely.
Then, softer than you’d ever heard from him: “So will I.”
That was the closest thing to goodbye you were ever going to get.
And somehow… it hurt more than if he’d said nothing at all.
⸻
It was your last shift.
The bar felt the same, but you didn’t. Everything had a weight to it now. The laughter, the music, even the way you wiped down the counter—it all carried finality.
And he was there.
Neyo showed up just before midnight. Sat at the end of the bar like always, helmet on the counter, armor dull with wear. He didn’t say anything when you slid him his drink. Just gave you a long look.
You didn’t need words tonight.
You served your last table, handed over the till, and untied your apron with tired fingers. The place was quieter than usual. The other bartender took over, giving you a soft wave as you shrugged into your coat.
You turned to leave—and saw him waiting at the door.
Outside, the street was cool and quiet. Your boots echoed against the duracrete. Neyo walked beside you, silent as a shadow.
“You didn’t have to wait,” you said softly.
He glanced over. “Didn’t want you walking alone.”
The corner of your mouth twitched. “You’re sweet when you’re trying not to be.”
He didn’t respond—but you could’ve sworn his jaw loosened, just a bit.
You walked in companionable silence, the kind that only came from two people who had said more in silence than they ever could aloud.
When you reached your building, you stopped at the steps and turned to him.
“If you ever need a drink…” you started, watching his face, “you’re welcome to come around.”
He stared at you. Not in the usual guarded way, but with something else in his eyes—something uncertain, almost… longing.
Then you added, “Want to come up?”
It hung there, a gentle offer, nothing more.
For a moment, you thought he’d refuse. It was written in his posture—the way he stood like he might turn away.
But then… he nodded.
You didn’t smile. Just opened the door and led the way.
Your apartment was small, cluttered, warm. You threw your coat over the back of the couch and kicked off your boots.
Neyo stood just inside the door, helmet under his arm like a shield he didn’t know where to put.
“You can sit,” you offered.
He did—hesitantly, armor creaking as he lowered himself onto the couch. You poured two drinks from a half-finished bottle on the counter and handed him one.
“You sure you’re off duty?” you teased lightly.
His eyes met yours over the rim of the glass. “I’m never off duty.”
You sat beside him, the air thick with things unsaid. His knee brushed yours. Neither of you moved.
“Why’d you really wait for me?” you asked, voice softer now.
He didn’t answer right away.
“I didn’t want to regret not saying goodbye.”
You swallowed. “You saying goodbye now?”
He looked at you. Really looked.
And then he kissed you.
It wasn’t soft or practiced—it was urgent, restrained, the way a man kisses when he doesn’t know if he’ll ever get the chance again. Your fingers curled into his blacks, and his gloves dropped to the floor. The helmet followed. You pulled him closer, and for once, he didn’t resist.
His hands were calloused, unsure, but when they found your skin, they lingered like he was memorizing every inch. You guided him, slow but certain, until his barriers fell—not just the armor, but the weight he carried behind his eyes.
He wasn’t a soldier in that moment.
He was a man. Tired. Raw. Desperate for something real.
And you gave it to him.
Bittersweet. Fleeting.
The kind of night that lingers like the echo of a song you almost forgot—until it finds you again in the quiet.
His mouth was still warm against yours when he pulled back, breath shallow, eyes unreadable.
You stayed close, barely inches apart, your fingers still resting against the edge of his undersuit.
“Neyo,” you whispered, searching his face. “It doesn’t have to be goodbye.”
His jaw clenched. Not in anger—just habit. A response to something he didn’t know how to process.
He looked away, eyes dragging across the room like he was already retreating. Like he had to remind himself where he was. Who he was.
“I don’t get to stay,” he said finally, voice low and rough. “I don’t have that kind of life.”
You leaned in again, gently, slowly, your hand coming up to rest against the side of his face. He didn’t pull away.
“I’m not asking for forever,” you said. “Just… don’t shut the door before you’ve even walked through it.”
He looked at you again, and something flickered behind his eyes. It wasn’t hope—but it was something close.
“I don’t want to leave and forget this ever happened,” you added. “I don’t want to pretend like you never came in out of the rain, like we didn’t sit under that streetlight all those nights like we were the only two people left in the world.”
His breath hitched—but barely.
“You don’t talk much,” you said softly, brushing your thumb just beneath his eye. “But you stayed. You showed up. Every time. That’s gotta mean something.”
Neyo closed his eyes, just for a second. When he opened them again, he didn’t speak. Instead, he leaned forward, pressing his forehead against yours.
It wasn’t a promise.
But it wasn’t a goodbye either.
And for someone like him, that was more than enough.
You stayed like that for a while—still dressed, still halfway caught in that space between war and peace, silence and what could be.
Then, finally, he spoke. A whisper. A truth you weren’t expecting.
“I’ll come find you.”
You nodded, even as your chest tightened. “Good.”
Because you weren’t sure when—or if—he would. But you believed him.
And maybe, for one of the first times in his life, so did he.
My characters are so happy right now :) Should I... ruin... everything?
Warnings: slightly sexually suggestive
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You swore he was doing it on purpose.
That whole “silent and brooding” thing he had going on? Weaponized. His voice, low and gravelly, the way he leaned against walls like they were built just for him, arms crossed and muscles on full display. He moved like he had time to kill and knew exactly how dangerous he looked doing it.
You were not immune. Maker, you were struggling.
It didn’t help that the Hunter Effect seemed to get worse during downtime. No blasterfire, no missions, just a hot planet, a half-broken fan in the corner of the Marauder, and him doing pull-ups in a sweat-soaked tank top like he was in some holodrama made for thirst traps.
You were trying not to stare. Failing miserably.
Hunter dropped from the bar with a soft thud and turned toward you like he’d felt the heat of your gaze. Probably had. Damn enhanced senses.
“You alright over there?” he asked, voice rich with amusement.
“Fine,” you replied, a little too quickly.
He raised a brow as he walked past, close enough to brush your shoulder with his—on purpose, probably. You bit your lip. Hard.
“Y’look a little flushed,” he said, and there was that grin. The knowing one. “Could be the heat. Could be something else.”
“Could be your ego,” you fired back, refusing to look up from your datapad.
He didn’t answer, but you could feel the smirk behind you.
Later that night, the heat stuck around—and so did he. The others were asleep or off doing their own thing, and you ended up side by side with Hunter near the edge of the ship’s loading ramp, sitting in the dark, stars overhead. You were close—closer than you usually allowed yourself to be.
He didn’t say anything at first. Just passed you a flask of something strong and let the silence settle.
Then—
“You know,” he said, voice quiet, “I’ve noticed how you look at me.”
Your breath caught.
“I don’t mind,” he continued, “but I figured I’d give you the chance to stop pretending.”
You turned to face him. He was already looking at you, intense and calm, like he’d been waiting for this moment.
“Pretending?” you asked, trying to play dumb.
He gave a soft chuckle. “You’re not subtle, mesh’la. And I’ve got good instincts.”
Your lips parted, but nothing came out. Because honestly… yeah. He was right. And you were caught.
Hunter shifted closer, gaze dropping to your lips just briefly—enough.
“I’ve been watching you too,” he added, voice low now, like a secret. “Listening to how your heartbeat changes when I get close. I like the way you look at me. Like you’re thinking about what it’d be like.”
Your throat went dry. “To do what?”
He smirked. “To ride.”
You choked on air.
“I meant a speeder,” he said, utterly deadpan.
You shoved his arm. “You’re a menace.”
“You love it.”
You paused.
“Yeah,” you admitted softly. “I really do.”
His smile dropped into something deeper, something real. His hand brushed yours, lingered.
“Then maybe it’s time we stop dancing around it.”
You looked at him—really looked. The man you fought beside, trusted with your life, laughed with, wanted like nothing else.
“Okay,” you said, voice barely above a whisper. “Let’s ride.”
He leaned in, lips ghosting yours.
“Hold on tight, sweetheart.”
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