"i Can Calculate The Motion Of Heavenly Bodies But Not The Madness Of People."

it feels weird and sad, you know? when you have shared such giggles with someone that you know everything about them, yet do not know the reason why you fell apart. you know their rainbows, their rain, their sunny days, and their cold winter but now you're stuck in the fall and it feels like autumn is never coming back. the hands that once grooved you to soft beats do not dare to make you smile anymore. and when you read those old conversations, you bury your head in a pillow and call yourself stupid, but the heart still beats. it never stops. time moves quickly slipping out of your hands when you read their words, and you keep reading. you want time to slip letters under your door by their name and you want autumn, and you want to be that stupid again because you realize stupidity is not fun unless there's a person to prove that it's not stupid to love someone.

enigma

Mohja Kahf, “Most Wanted”, Hagar Poems

Now that I think about it, Monster is pretty much a dark academian anime. Johan is literally the poster boy for dark academia and spouts edgy quotes while driving people into s*ic*de but don't worry, you will also meet the most wholesome people in this anime.

and how could i forget this very iconic quote:

I rest my case 😌 Now go watch Monster, it's such a great and very underrated anime though there are a lot of trigger warnings and nudity.

"If forever does exist, please let it be you...." - a.r.asher

darlin'

I fall to pieces when I'm with you

"The only noise now was the rain, pattering softly with the magnificent indifference of nature for the tangled passions of humans."

Sherwood Smith

Sometimes it’s absolutely scary to do something just because you care so much, and if it goes wrong, the disappointment can feel crushing. But trying is better than being paralyzed. There is more regret in inaction than in making a bad choice. It’s not too late to do something you’ve been putting off out of anxiety. You’re more than capable of doing this. Let’s try to think more about realistic future scenarios instead of catastrophic ones. Yeah, life is not always perfect, but you don’t have to be either. You are good enough as you are, keep going. You deserve to try. There is more to life than the awful scenarios anxiety comes up with and tries to protect you from. Just remember that isolation and inaction are cutting you off from the world, and it’s hurting you on the long run.

You are so much more than anxiety, than catastrophe, tragedy or failure. What matters most is that you keep trying, not that you do everything perfectly. Take slow steps. Do it at the best of your abilities without burning out. Each day at a time. You’re not alone in this. 🌱

Morning Star (Lucifer) // by Paul Fryer at Holy Trinity Church

lana del rey