The Perfect Time Doesn't Exist, It's Now Or Never ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

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Nothing much today, cramping, stayed home with kid, had to tend after kid, we took a nap together tho. I LOVE period cramps 😍🔫

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:0 the date 2005!

Today I tried to complete the painting I started yesterday, but ehh, will finish tomorrow once I get over the overthinking phase.

I did pilates as usual today, and I'm seriously thinking about actually going ahead with signing one of the 2 modelling contracts offered to me, but my mom won't let me 💔but I want to take it (modelling) seriously urghhhh.

Idkkk, and I should actually finish with the uni stuff, idk idk idkkekjskaksvdndksksk I did NOT plan to be alive to experience this moment oh my gooooddddddddddd😖

🤍 Things I have over 100 of:

- Pennies

- Books

- Hairs on my head

- Songs listened to

- Volunteer hours

- Cells in my body

- Minutes of YouTube watched

- Photos

- Sticky Notes

- Pieces of paper

- Liked Tumblr posts (across all my blogs)

- Heart BPM (high heart rate)

- Assignments done

- Words read

- Stories to tell

- Words written

- Friends (not just ppl)

- Nerves

- Shreds of Cheddar cheese

- Dreams

200225

Day 3 no WiFi, been using my data sparsely kill me rn💔I just wanna go and watch YT coding tutorials for hours don't do this to me 💔

Look at my lunch tho 🥲

7/10 day, pay for the WiFi plzzzz💔😭

0280225

Woke up - sink routine - skipped stretch - breakie was delicious 😫 #frenchtoast - admired my artworks - watched Lucifer a bit too immersed - had crazy art block - 'played' against a 5-year-old in chess (bless her heart lol) - late lunch + hibiscus tea - listen to substack - read classic - take fat nap - dinner - shower - didn't finish ep2 of hannibal so will do it tonight aka rn.

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The Digital Camera Will Not Save You: Self-Surveillance, Camp-pensation, and The Internalized Voyeur

things i notice partying 5 days a week, reflections on newfound attraction to men (and how yall got me fucked up)

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😭

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I believe its time for me to lock in and sign with a modelling agency asap🙏

These ones on the left were from 2023/24 I think... The ones on the right were from last month's casting I went to.

I need to be on the runway before I turn 20 😔💔

Gonna exercise rn and take a shower before bed. Tomorrow I will take new proper digitals and measurements, hopefully seeing the numbers will trigger something in my lasy ass 💀😭.

Stats I know

Height : 180cm/5'11

Weight : ≈63kgs

Your Life’s Not Boring—You’re Just on Your Phone Too Much

If you’ve been feeling glued to your phone—especially apps like TikTok and Instagram—you’re not alone. So many of us are stuck in this loop, and it can seriously mess with our energy, motivation, and overall health.

One thing I’ve struggled most with lately is comparison. Feeling like what I do just isn’t... enough. If you’ve felt that too, this post is for us both. A little reminder that:

✨ You are enough, just as you are. ✨ You’ve survived every hard day, and your inner child and I are so proud of you. Don't ever forget how far you've come as a person! If all you did was make your bed and hydrate today, that's a win worth celebrating. You're doing just fine, and you'll do all that you wish to on your own divine timing.

And yes, your life isn’t boring. You might just be too distracted to see how beautiful it really is. So instead of escaping it, let’s try to romanticize it!

10 Ways to Romanticize Your Life & Be More Present

Wake up a little earlier. It doesn’t have to be 5 AM (unless that’s your thing). Even an hour earlier can give you quiet time to get things done without distractions.

Take an "everything shower." These are pretty meditative for me in a way. I like to imagine the water washing off all my stress and stagnant energy I may have accumulated throughout the day. Like a reset button!

Make a breakfast you’d actually get out of bed early for. Pancakes? Fruit? Whatever makes your inner child happy.

Play jazz or soft instrumentals while doing everyday activities. Instant cozy vibes.

Read outside. Sitting on your porch or even by a window gives you that vitamin D and a fresh perspective.

Find a screen-less hobby you enjoy. Try crochet, painting, poetry, LEGO kits, pottery, etc. Block-building kits are my fave—they’re so fun and satisfying. Just remember to take breaks and stretch!

Re-watch something comforting or start something new. That show you keep skipping past might become your next obsession.

Connect. If you’ve been stuck in your room all day, talk to someone. Call a friend, hug your pet, or chat with family. A quick convo with my mom always boosts my mood!

Learn something new! When was the last time you went out of your way to explore something you didn’t already know? (and nope, school doesn’t count.) Take a moment to find a subject you’ve never looked into or dive deeper into one you already know a little about. Pick up on a new language, study an unfamiliar culture, or even try learning a random skill just for fun. Expanding your mind keeps life feeling fresh and exciting.

Travel (if you can). I can't stress this one enough!! Even just getting out of town for a single 24 hours can give you a whole new perspective. A change of scenery does wonders, especially when life feels repetitive. It doesn't have to be far, either. You can travel to the next city over and explore what it's like there!

Remember: Social media is NOT real life. That influencer who’s always partying in Miami with a closet full of designer bags? You’re seeing their highlight reel, not the full picture. Some even goes as far as faking luxury lifestyles for the views. Don’t compare your behind-the-scenes to someone else’s curated feed. At the end of the day, it's all for the aesthetics/entertainment.

Be gentle with yourself. You're doing better than you think, angel. xo, Kay 🪽

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Update of the day: I think I got dermatographia 🙂?

False alarm, it was HIVES 😍🤩🥰🔫

160525

Today I went to the mall, got groceries, and got a cheescake n milk for myself to indulge in 😼, so I sat at the benches and ate to my fill, it was like a solo date honestly, I did sudoku, I drew half-heartedly yet felt full, and read abit. Came back home, cleaned my room, made myself an avocado milkshake, danced to some tunes and I'm watching YOU as I type this. Now I'm going to stretch, take a shower and tuck myself into my freshly made bed :3.