I Feel Like All My Friends Are Tired From Me, And Praying For Me Committing Suicide

I hate when someone says that I'm pretending that I have tremor, do you want to say that I'm "pretending" for 2 months?

Aaah, why is it so cold in Siberia? I know that it should be cold here, but not like that! I hate these moments when I'm getting too cold and because of that I'm starting to shake. And mostly people become concern about me... I hope that I won't shake today, ahaha!

I was about to jump off the window right now, but remembered that I'm living on the 3rd floor, so even if I jump, I'll survive. But this window is almost telling me to commit su!c!de!!

Why can't I just give up and stop visiting doctors and let myself rot until it's too late? I feel like I'm already starting to decompose, just leave me alone, so I can rot

I've never understood why people keeps making stereotypes about non-binaries, agenders, and etc. I guess that society needs a lot of time to understand that even if you're non-binary you don't need to always look androgynous! Even if you're nonbinary, you still can look feminine or masculine, because your appearance will never affect on who you are! And we also can wear skirts and etc, because clothes haven't got gender! Unfortunately not all people understand it...

Trying to dump my sufferings to feel healthy again. I can't bear it anymore.

Okay, okay, I try to understand everything, but... why PE it's required? I know that sports it's important, and it helps being healthy, and etc, but why I should do sports when after run I feel nausea? Why can't I just do some exercises, and that's all? For example, I also have problems with hands (tremor, but for now I'm not diagnosed yet) and my tremor gets harder and harder when I do sports, and in the end I feel bad and humiliated. So why can't I just don't go on PE?

I may not understand psychosomatic disorders, but damn, people definitely should stop stigmatizing them. Like, why the fuck it's called pseudo just because it has mental origin? You wouldn't call someone depression pseudo, so why the fuck you're calling functional symptoms pseudo?

Guys with FND/Conversion disorder/Idk, whatever you call it, you're completely valid. I genuinely don't care about your disease being psychogenic, you're still a legend with completely real symptoms, just not psychical origin.

Fuck it. As someone who was born in Russia, I fucking despise the all angry and alcoholic russian stereotype. No, not all russians drink vodka. No, we don't have constant winter. No, we aren't angry 24/7. And no, most of us don't have the "typical" russian accent. I'm tired of "russian" characters who are just a walking stereotype.

I just needed to say this, thank you.

I wanna die