Added A Little Friend For The Anatomical Heart From Yesterday.

i love when tragedies are like “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there”

I've finally gotten around to making an AO3 account (I had problems with my email and stuff) so I'll finally be able to write and post my stuff with proper tags and all!! (And also praise my favourite authors with plenty of kudos, comments, and bookmarks)

P.S. I'm on list for the welcome email thing so until about the 8th I won't have anything but afterwards if anybodys curious (and no one already has the nickname) you'll find me under the same name as here and X.

Spoilers for Original Sin and Dexter season 1 cause I need to rant about stuff. I warned you.

I just gotta rant about this cause everyone seems so pleased with Original Sin and how it came out...

The show per se wasn't bad at all, actually I even liked it but there were so many inconsistencies plot-wise that I could've happily ignored if it was a separate work or even an alternative universe, but not since it's supposed to be Dexter reminiscing his past at the end of New Blood.

Imma start off with a simple question: Where in FUCK'S name is Matthews?? Originally that man was at Deb's 16th or so birthday and you want me to believe that now that she's supposed to be 17 (which by the way I dont like since her birthday was december 7th of 1979, thing that would happily explain why Matthews is nowhere to be seen) he's not even shown as part of the police force??

Also, should I ignore the fact that Dex in episode one of the first show used the fishing noose or whatever it was like in the books to lead his victims to their death to then start using M99 at random? And in OG sin they make him find it out by the end of the season which woud completely threw off the plot of the pilot episode Dexter.

Dont even get me started on Brian as a charater and all cause what Xander and epecially Roby did was magical. They perfectly encapsulated Brian's essence as a charater and a person but what the fuck was his storyline even???

I could go on hours long rants about Brian's fluctuating age cause he and Dex weren't even a full year apart in the books and already in Dexter they had made it two to three (since they told us Brian was 6 when the Shipping Yard massacre happened but then they showed us his driver's licence were his birthday was set in 1968, which would've made him 5 but okay) AND NOW THEY PUSHED HIS BDAY EVEN FURTHER?!?! Like what do you mean 1966?? Do they want him to be a full blown teenager when his mother gets killed or what?

Also, have mercy on me but what is this psychopath propaganda they're trying to push on him? Oh yeah, he had morbid curiosity about some lizards and detached their tails for fun. He's definitely evil. Well, lemme break it to you: LIZARDS CAN SHED THEIR TAILS NATURALLY!! So that whole bullshit scene of Harry and Dexter making a funeral for the lizards made no damn sense unless Brian actively killed them somehow offscreen (or if I missed the scene in which he did) And even if he did, he was a poor curious child. Someone could've just gone "you dont do that cause it hurts the lizards" and he would've most likely stopped.

Still on the psycopath propaganda part, I'm tired as hell of hearing people say, and reading comments stating, Brian is a psychopath. I can assure you that if he'd really been a psychopath he wouldn't have cared so much about getting back to Dex. He also wouldn't have had his emotional moments either like when he snapped at Dex because "you cant be a killer and a hero..." in Dexter and his "so I can work at a radio shack for the rest of my life?!" to his therapist. I can go into even more detail about his death and all but that could easily be a separate post.

Back to OG Sin in general... Where did Spencer even come from in the storyline? And btw, was I the only one who clocked that mf in episode 2? I'm sure that the actor who played him did a fantastic job with him if I managed to notice so early on because lord was it obvious that there was something wrong with that man.

LaGuerta is even more insufferable than she already was in Dexter and that alone is saying tons.

What was that whole storyline with Sofia and shit? What was the purpose of it, and even better, if they hadn't been renewed for a new season how did they expect to explain where in hell she went since Deb never mentioned her (to my knowledge) in Dexter?

Also, please, and I promise this is the last thing, can they give Debra a normal relationship? Why does EVERY SINGLE GUY she gets with have to be a drug dealer a serial killer or an abusive entitled bitch? Can't she fall for a normal guy and have a normal relationship ending with a normal excuse like "he snored in his sleep and he didn't know how to do his laundry" or shit like that???

tl;dr: Where is Matthews? Introducing M99 like that seemed very stupid. Why do they hate Brian's story and character so bad? Where did Spencer come from? And I'm not even gonna bother with LaGuerta, Sofia and Deb.

Perfectly agree with Wincest but also Mosercest.

i think the reason why i personally love wincest so much is because it makes me feel. that's the most honest way i can put it. it makes me feel like i'm in love too - like i've found that rare, once-in-a-lifetime-if-you're-lucky kind of connection. it’s intense and overwhelming and impossible to look away from. it’s the kind of love people spend their whole lives searching for. it’s forbidden, yeah. it’s dark and complicated and a little bit fucked up—but it’s also beautiful. it’s messy and toxic and codependent in ways that shouldn’t work, and yet somehow, it feels like the purest form of love. it’s every emotion all at once. it makes me laugh, cry, scream, melt. i get angry, i get butterflies, i get it all.

and the morality? the fact that it’s “wrong”? honestly, that just adds another layer. there’s something so compelling about watching two people love each other so fiercely, so destructively, that they’d burn the whole world to keep each other. and the fact that they’re brothers—bound by blood, by history, by everything—just makes it that much more intense. there’s no escaping it. no clean lines. just chaos and devotion and love all tangled together. wincest just gives you every kind of love in one relationship. it’s romantic, it’s platonic, it’s familial, it’s obsessive. they’re soulmates, best friends, two soldiers fighting the same war, everything. it’s insane. it’s epic. and when you let yourself really feel it, when you stop trying to box it in or sanitize it, it hits you like nothing else.

they have that one-in-a-million connection. the kind you don’t come back from. and yeah, it’s dark. but it’s also honest. and it stays with you.

This is the most Mosercest-coded post I ever came across. Especially the kind of Mosercest that dear @atticuseros writes about. And I love it.

Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

what real suffering looks like

:)))

"I did it for you" has gotta be my favorite form of betrayal. You gave me a gift I never asked for, and now I have to look around at the world you destroyed with the knowledge that it was gift wrapped and addressed to me.