No, Cause What Do You Mean I Can't Listen To Lana Del Rey And Read My Otps And Do Nothing Else Other

Manifesting, Athena taking pity on me and making my brain work like it did last night at 23:00 throughout the exam.

wants to write malec fanfic while simultaneously not wanting to touch an already perfect couple for fear of tainting cassandra clare’s masterpiece

Shout-out to Cassandra Clare for appreciating the intimacy of characters calling each other by their full names when everyone else uses a nickname for them

Today I found myself reading TMI again after being done with studying (ugh, whoever invented exams can burn in hell) and I feel like I keep running out of ways to explain how incredibly copy pasted and close I feel to Alec. Like, yes sure, I love Izzy with every inch of my soul and don't I wish I was like her and Magnus is just such a me vibe in my best days. But Alec has always been my focal point every single time I read Cassandra Clare, and every time I expect to find myself being like "oh shut up" like I often find myself doing when Jace talks, even Clary sometimes, but I just don't.

I find it so unbelievable how the first time I read City of Bones I was around three years younger than Alec in that book and I just couldn't help but think "He's real". Because miss m'am Izzy was killing demons in high heels at sixteen and Jace probably had more girlfriends than I have hair on my head and there was Alec. Trying to beat sense into them, being discarded by Jace the moment Clary came into view. His only friends being his own sister who was his complete opposite and his parabatai who way too foused on being cool than on his own struggles, him trying to hide himself from the Clave out of pure fear that they would exile him and just abandon him in a world full of demons as a mundane like they did to his uncle.

He was the secondary character. The fifth wheel of the cart, as we say in my family. And I could relate to that, because being on the outside and looking on the inside, being aware that you're not enough is something that i've found myself doing all my life ever since I was a toddler. Not too fun. Not too cool. Not too smart. You're just in the middle of it all. Never enough to stand out. Just a blank paper. And I just felt this ache in my heart when I finished that book years ago and I still feel it every time and this boiling rage knowing that this man stood bravely against it all. The fact that he played such an important role in the war, almost as important as Jace and he was still seen as "Jace's parabatai", when this man genuinely changed the law and rebuild every belief of the Clave to make it more humane.

There's just enough words in the dictionary to how many levels I love Alec and to how many levels I am grateful to Cassie for writing him, because who would I violently and brutally relate to if it wasn't Alexander Gideon Lightwood, the Inquisitor of the Clave and the man who loved a man so much he changed the world for him and Magnus's archer boy.

Come home. Cone home a and scream at me. Come home and fight with me. Come home and break my heart if you must. Just come home.

And that's me sobbing in a corner if my room

And I cannot be judged because I know you all did

people: do you like (character)?

me, a little unhinged about said character: He’s fine. He’s alright.

“what’s the point in wasting a perfectly good brick wall when you have someone to throw against it, that’s what I always say” lmaooo Isabelle

My math teacher watches anime and has a cat called Darth Vader, and has read Dune and LOTR.

WTF? What alternate universe is this? I'm not sure I like it.

people baffle me sometimes. someone made a whole video going “calling what rhys did to feyre sa negates the circumstances of the situation.” so I said that drugging someone is under the definition of assault.

they go “okay that’s your opinion.” ??? it’s quite literally the definition LMFAOO.

they “love” feyre so much but then ignore assault that has happened to her because it was from rhys and he was in a hard spot too :(

do you think dead Shadowhunters watch from heaven what their descendants do? Nah cause just imagine

Jace: To love is to destroy, and to be loved is to be destroyed

Everyone in heaven: *staring at Will*

Will: ok first of all, this isn't my fault

...

Kit: *moves with Jem and Tess after feeling rejected by his crush*

Cordelia: oh my angel

Cordelia: oh my angEL JAMES COME HERE YOU WON'T BELIEVE WHAT I'VE JUST SEEN

...

Alec: *coming out to his parents*

Anna: *aggressively slams her hand on the table* OK EVERYONE, YOU OWE ME AT LEAST FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS. I DON'T CARE IF I'M DEAD ABD DON'T NEED MONEY CHARLES JUST SHUT UP

...

Kieran, Mark and Cristina: *being poly*

Will: OH RAZIEL, WHY DIDN'T I THINK ABOUT THAT, THIS IS A BRILLIANT IDEA

Matthew: Yeah! *Looks at Cordelia and James* Wy didn't we think about that too?!

Cordelia: Matthew, we don-

James: no no wait he has a point

...

Kit: some idiot named W.H. wrote on this books

Will: WHO YOU CALLIN AN IDIOT YOU LITTLE SHIT

Charlotte: Will wait hES A BABY-

...

Sophie: look at Isabelle. She's just so good. She has a lot of dates!

Gideon and Gabriel: *proud*

Cecily: yes but ... where's the flirting awkwardness that distingues Lightwoods? The thing that Thomas, Gideon and Gabriel have?

Thomas: hey-

Alastair: yeah she's right, where is it?

Alec: *just doing anything*

Alastair: ah there it is