I Think The Biggest Appeal Of Enemies-to-lovers Is That It Forces The Leads To Learn To Like Each Other

the day thunderbolts get released for streaming and all you psychological terrorists (tik tok editors) get your hands on it….

consider me sat. sobbing. but sat.

"Friends dont look at friends that way" COWARD. I look at my friends with awe in my eyes, my chest is filled with love, im glowing because i get to be near my friends. I look at my friends and i would give them my everything. SO SKILL ISSUE, look at your friends with all the love that you have

repost with no background + a watermark because i forgot to do that the first time around!

also i made an instagram account so i'll be posting my art on there soon!! the @ is aiyannas__

thank you for all the love!! :)

When Bob said something like “the highs are so high but when it’s low……” I had tears in my eyes. One sentence, that I myself have said so many times but hearing it caught me so off-guard.

If anyone finds the movie’s ending stupid, all I can say is this: sometimes you just need enough people to care. You just need someone to force their presence in your life. You need to hear, over and over again, that you are enough - not because you’re not listening the first time someone says it, but because your own voices are much louder and much more recurrent. It’s someone bringing you back to a consciousness that helps you realise you’re not as worthless as you actually feel… as useless. And sometimes, having that helps so much that it will get me through the day without a black silence echoing all around me. And that’s what Thunderbolts does. That’s why it actually matters beyond being in the MCU and being a movie.

today i learned that yelena’s name means “bright/shining light” and if you think about how she’s really the beating heart of the thunderbolts* and how alexei says she lights up every room she walks into and how bob—whose alter ego is literally the physical manifestation of his own darkness—immediately latched on to her because for all her prickliness, she managed to make him feel safe and wanted and seen, i just….yeah i’m not okay

hey guys have you ever heard of THE CHARACTER. i’m thinking about THE CHARACTER. honestly can’t even get shit done because i’m thinking about THE CHARACTER. i’m listening to a song and imagining THE CHARACTER. all i know and love is THE CHARACTER

i watched thunderbolts yesterday night and i am not the same person i was before i sat down in that theater. the mental health representation, the anti heroes banding together, the start of their redemption arcs, yelena's monologue, john walker being (surprisingly and unfortunately) funny, bob's entire character in general, james buchanan barnes (obviously), THE HUG??? someone needs to sedate me before i do something insane like trying to shift into this universe to be friends with everyone as if it's still 2020.

My mind:

no but i am genuinely impressed that they made me root for john walker without retconning anything about his personality or his actions. he's a pro-military patriot dipshit deadbeat dad who thinks every action he takes is the correct one without fail because he has mentally classified himself as The Good Guy and everybody else as The Bad Guy. but they put him in this ragtag antihero team of controversial suicidals and he just Fits. like yeah he fits in there. with the other murderers and mercenaries and losers, who only know how to kill, and despise everything about themselves. and that, more than anything else about the movie, is truthful to the nature of the thunderbolts as a team. their point is that they kind of suck ass, most of them disagree wildly on politics and philosophy, all of them have killed innocents, and they're not above the pettiest, most assholeish behavior ever put to either screen or paper. that's the core of the thunderbolts, and that's what they nailed. without actually including any of the comic book thunderbolts.

liking someone platonically is so embarrassing like. yeah i admire you. yeah i think about you all the time. yeah i look forward to every time i see you even if it's only for a minute. yeah it's all platonic and yeah i couldn't explain this because it'd sound romantic. fucking hell