You May Be Doing All The Right Things But You're Not Seeing Results. You Keep Asking The Almighty And

I love deep conversations, like serious shit, heart to heart, just exchanging real shit, just vibing on a real level.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

One of the hardest pills to swallow as an adult is that not everyone can afford to sacrifice.

Not everyone can drop everything all at once and go on a great venture towards the uncertain roads―just to feel something new or just to restart life. Some find it easy to risk because they still have something to return to. But what about the others? What about me? What I have now is all that I got. If I stumble, it’ll take me years to get back to my feet again.

All the steps I take are counted one by one, and I feel like I was always unlucky when it comes to finding my place in this world. I am a coward, but I am extra careful. I am hesitant, but I am always protective of what I have earned.

Maybe, making mistakes is a privilege. Everyone can move forward with questions left untouched in the morning, but for someone like me who doesn’t have lifelines, I fear the cruel answers and rejections that would come up with the sun.

All my life, I have been mending the damage of my wrong decisions. And so, I pray this time, that even if I am granted nothing else but just a mediocre life―let it be gentler. Safer. I hope I am content. I just don’t want the world to once again take me at an unfair advantage just because I don’t have enough support systems.

I have no other options but to be my own safety net.

‿ℒℴνℯ⁀💕 A͓̽b͓̽d͓̽u͓̽l͓̽l͓̽a͓̽h͓̽

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"I crave and desire you."

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Because without looking for you, I find you everywhere, especially when I close my eyes.

- #Abdullah #AbdullahBook #KittyCat

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

First love does not mean best love. And best friends may not mean best friends forever. But they both mean at some point, somewhere, someone did care. And their memories still there.

Wisdom about Life.

When something bothered me, I didn’t talk with anyone about it. I thought it over all by myself, came to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that’s just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own.

- Abdullah

Remember that in life there will always be people who can never admit that they’ve done wrong.

Such people exist. They will always try to make you feel that you’re at fault.

Be careful of such people. Keep a safe distance. Pray for them. Only the Almighty can help them.

🖊️ Abdullah

Taste my soul and see how it only drips for you.

Make my body rise and fall like the greatest ruins in Rome.

Lick away the growling moans from my mouth that only you hear.

Give me a sensual memory that makes me close my eyes and take a deep breath remembering what the moment felt like.

Make me scream your name as I'm throwing my head back in ecstasy and agony.

Rapture me with your words that send chills down my spine and ignites my soul.

Wipe my tears away and calm my anxieties as only you can.

Calm the storms in my eyes and the panic in my chest as you hold me tight.

Break down my Hadrian's Wall that keeps guard of my emotions, and barricades my heart from hurt.

Help calm my mind by separating my rational and my overthinking.

Put my insecurities to rest by gently caressing my mind.

Paint the mosaic of my heart with vibrant colors, instead of the muted grays of depression.

Make me come alive again by scratching your fingers down my back making red lines.

Lay down with me putting my head on your chest- as I'm listening to the rhythm of your heartbeat relaxing my tension.

Envelope me so the dark matter of my heart can collide with yours forming our own constellation.

Be my muse, my force, my inspiration for my raw creative expression.

Lure out my darkness and play with it as you wickedly grin.

Smile warmly at the innocence of my light that illuminates my soul.

Love me through my light and dark- guiding me through the journey not letting me fall.

Have such a strong connection with me that I'm etched into your mind, as you're in mine.

A connection so incredibly strong that we're highly attuned to each other as a 6th sense without having to say a word. We just know.

Love me as only you can...sincerely, divinely, truly, all encompassing, and adoringly....and I'll always be yours as long as the stars are in the night sky.