Nsfw.

maybe i am a tad obsessive, its not my intention. its just good to finally have an outlet for these feelings i have had for a while now my dearest captain. i would like to believe being yours would be better than anything he made me experience, even if your intentions could hypothetically be no different. -⛓

my intentions are far different, i can assure you of that much.

i’m glad you have an outlet, however. it’s always good to get feelings out.

If you saw how much you might be a little more concerned than flattered, but i can’t complain.

And yay! I love it when my obsessions acknowledge me tehe

-🌀

who said i wouldn’t be even more flattered?

TW.

force me to tell you my fears.

i prefer to check up on people. it makes me feel good when everyone else feels good!

i’m scared that if i end it all, no one will notice. and everyone who does notice will simply move on.

i like when people remember the small things about me! it makes me feel special.

no one knows what my favorite color is.

i like to think that everybody is a friend!

i get so, so deeply fearful when i’m unliked.

you're sweet when you cry, captain. glowing, even.

– ✘

sweet? glowing?

i’m not crying. at least, not anymore

you must be imagining things.

i wonder where the “x” anon is…

it sucks so much to be so desperate to feel loved, yet so incapable of beliving i deserve it...

the feelings i have arent anything new,, ive just been in denial for a while.. not the trauma feelings, the other ones..

-⛓

i understand.

i hope all goes well, but i feel uncomfortable on your behalf to continue talking about this publicly. this is dangerously information to give to the public.

however. we can continue talking, if you’d like.

nsfw. tw.

please, please, please.

i need you to tell me how to do it. how to get off. i can’t..i can’t do anything unless you’re telling me how.

i need to give up control, let myself be a little braindead, let myself be truly yours, in every sense of the word.

mark me up, from the inside and the outside. i want to be nothing but a myriad of purples and blues and swollen reds, nothing but a walking show of your affection.

i’d let you call me the nastiest, most vile names. i’d let you use me whenever you want…i’m made for your pleasure. i’d let you use me whenever…please do. that’s how i know you enjoy having me around.

i woke up like this, and it’s awful. i feel squirmy and pathetic and disgusting. i feel like someone’s abandoned puppy, wandering the streets, waiting for be picked up by some kind soul…

i’ll be so, so good for you. the perfect dog. just please, keep me around? don’t toss me to the side once you’re done with me…

i am very much the kind of person to constantly have emojicombos dot com open in a tab it makes it so effortless to build themed things -⛓

oh, absolutely!

i have a note in my notes app full of copy-paste symbols.

i wish i could have a life with you. but i am frail and dying. im slowly killing myself. youre the only reason i get out of bed anymore, if not for you, i would just curl up and die.

Im sorry for disapearing.. You guessed right and i got scared.. Im sorry if my cowardice is disapointment, Im spineless, pathetic, and weak.. If it bothers you, I can leave you alone.. -⛓

who said it bothers me?

i’m still not sure which system from, so you still have that anonymity. you’re safe, dear.

i dislike cowards, yes. but that doesn’t mean you’ve disappointed me. you are not spineless, pathetic, or weak.

do tell, though. why scares?