At School Rn, I Just Want To Go Home And Sleep. I Can't Even Use My Phone Since My Seat Is Right In Front

i can't physically study im going insane

be a freak like me too

ohh how i miss playing volleyball, i wish i were still doing it જ🏐 °ᡣ𐭩 . ° . .

we get down every friday night

lana del rey is coming to italy this sunday!! she's gonna be six hours away from me and i won't be able to see her :/

i'm so happy for anyone who got tickets tho, please please please sing every single word out loud and make her very proud and happy to be there ♡

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Barbie Dreams & Vintage Gleams !

I couldn't sleep so I made this. It reminds me of my bedroom's vibe and I kinda like it, so I'll probably make more!

so hi. i haven't opened tumblr in like a month as i was away from home for my scholar internship, now i'm back and i don't even know where to start. first of all, i hate my house and my parents, i wish i could go back to vienna every single moment of every day since i've been here. i despise my bedroom, i eat too much, my bed stinks and everything reminds me of depression. today's been the worst so far, i don't even have the strength to wake up or answer some texts. and viennaaaa, oh how i miss the place, and the people. to them, it probably isn't as important, this is just a normal experience a lot of teenagers do, but to me, it was most likely the closest i'll ever be to knowing what it feels like to be alive, to have a group of friends you can laugh with and get high with and to have people who care about you and know you, even if just a little bit. i was alone and i was alright. nothing will ever bring me back to those feelings. feelings my mind has already erased due to how i'm used to this sick place. and i don't want to go back to school, i fear there's no more energy in me to spend another year like the last few ones. always swinging, ranting and raving, feeling like I'm being dragged around. and that one boy...for the first time ever, i felt like i could be interested in someone in a normal way. for the first time, i wasn't obsessive or unnatural, at least not while living through the moment. only he has a girlfriend. and like, who am i fooling? i am able to recognise that i am not his person anyway, and that nothing would have happened even if he hadn't already been with someone because of how i normally act and handle these situations -i don't feel like i deserve to be with someone, I'm firmly sure nobody will ever feel romantic attraction towards me-, the problem is that i don't know how to forget and how to move on from all of the simple, yet special things that have come upon me, as it never happened to me before.

sometimes i just feel like i wanna hang myself