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— ♡₊˚•. In too deep

— syn. you’re used to moving often with your family but after meeting a boy at a pet fish store you dread the day you’ll have to leave.

— genre. fluff/angst + strangers to lovers + boy next door + classroom crush

— wc. 4k

— a/n. idk if i like the ending but enjoy !!

“Please welcome the new transfer student y/n”, you stood in the familiar spot in front of a completely new classroom yet again, you felt as if you were being plotted against. ever since you can remember your parents found a way to move out of town, dragging you along with them, just when life started looking up for you although this time was no different but it hurt more than ever. Throughout the years you learnt to keep your distance from others, considering your situation and the inevitable grief that came along with building real connections but you wanted to believe that you could have someone, just one, you didn’t need anything more, so you gave in.

Busan 1 year ago,

It had been a couple weeks since you moved to Busan with your parents, they were both extremely spontaneous and you were the product of that so you also had to suffer from it. Nothing ever truly being planned, you got thrown left and right trying to keep up with them, even though your personality was in total contrast. Unlike them you needed order to function so you were anywhere but home, you studied at internet cafes, read books at the library, took long walks and let yourself breathe. On one of those days, before you had gotten enrolled in school, you took the time to enjoy your temporary neighborhood, it was late summer the air was getting cooler and leaves were starting to match the yellow sun, you were focused on window shopping, too lazy to look through clothes but still entranced by the displays of the latest fall collections.

The store you were facing now was unfamiliar you had never been much interested in anything other than clothes, fashion was your home you could always turn to it when you felt lost, this however was nothing close to fashion you looked through the blurred out glass in front and watched as the fish collectively swam towards you tapping slightly on the glass, that’s cute, you thought as you stepped back ready to continue your walk before glancing back once more,

“You’re not gonna come in?” a guy who seemed to be around your age stepped out of the store, you shook your head smiling hoping it would make him let it go, he sighed in an exaggerated manner letting his head fall back,

“no one likes fish in this town anymore” he took a peak at you to checking if you were still listening, a smile lit up his face when he realized you were still there, you couldn’t help it you were curious and he was putting on a great show, he gestured for you to come in, “After you..”

The last place you thought you’d end up was in a pet fish store, you never even thought of their existence yet here you were, listening to this random guy talk about how cool fish were, and you were truly trying to listen but he was just so distracting he probably caught you staring at least 5 times and you entered 3 minutes ago, you felt like you were going crazy just from the way he’d laugh it off focusing on the fish once again, he’d feed the fish while explaining to you why these specific fish eat this fish food and why certain fish couldn’t, you’d join him as he watched the fish, your face starting to burn as you felt his gaze on you. You tried your best to enjoy the moment shoving back recurring thoughts of this being pointless since you’d end up ignoring this place after today, you already felt that you had gotten too close while his name was still a mystery to you, you realize he’d stopped talking and bring your attention back to him smiling apologetically,

“ so are you gonna buy a fish?” he asked hesitantly his hand rubbing his nape, you snorted out a laugh and nodded,

“ you know what i will “ you scanned the room quickly trying to find the one that caught your eye, he watched your gaze as it landed on one of the tanks he waited watching as you struggled to find the name of the fish, you turned back to him and tried to force your smile away, he chuckled patting your head as he went over to the tank, “The betta splendens? ” he pointed out the exact one that caught your eye, you nodded and watched him take out the fish into a water filled plastic bag.

After drowning you in more information on how to take care of your new company, he grabbed a can of fish food and a fish bowl, you looked confused as he gave you the receipt, only the fish being charged, he just shrugs,

“ You kept me company today, that’s just a little thank you. You’ll have to drop by soon enough this one’s a big eater” your heart sank now realizing he expected you to come back meaning you had to stay away and though it hurt now it would only hurt more if you let it happen, and so you waved goodbye to possible happiness to save your from an endless grief.

New class, new school, new faces, same old feeling, you couldn’t shake it as the bell rang and your classmates rushed over to you introducing themselves one by one, you tried to be polite but it was getting old at this point, when you saw the chance arise you slipped out the door only to bump into someone else, you looked up and were met with a face you recognized, his face lit up as he yelled out “it’s you!” your eyes widened in shock not expecting him to be so loud about it, acting like a part of you didn’t want this exact scenario to play out, you had been secretly hoping to see his face at least once again and there he was,

“ I felt so dumb when you left, I didn’t even get your name, do you have a number?” he says scrolling through his phone before handing it to you, you pushed it back to him deciding that seeing him was actually enough you needed to be alone, “it’s y/n, sorry i actually don’t.. have a phone” you said lying through your teeth, you read his name tag as he pointed it out, Kim Donghyun, it seemed like everything about him kept you wanting to know more, you were just about ready to leave to gather your thoughts,

“ Wait you’re in this class? “ your eyes shut close as the realization kicked in, he was your deskmate, of course he was, your luck was off the charts at this point you gave him your best smile before turning around and sprinting to the girls’ room, you groaned loudly as you entered a stall totally dismissing the thought of other people being there.

Maybe it was a sign, maybe you could give in this time, maybe your prayers had been answered, maybe you had found someone but the fear was suffocating you couldn’t ignore it, that if you let your guard down it would be so easy to break you and you’re so close to the edge you’re not sure you could get back up if you fall this time. After a few minutes you were able to calm down, you made your way back to class and there he was sitting by the window almost as if he could feel your presence he looked in your direction, while you tried your best to ignore his obvious staring as you sat beside him.

“Are you okay?” he asked in a low voice, you had your head wrapped in your arms as you rested on the desk and his voice seemed so close, you turned over to look at him not expecting him to be as close as he was, you thought he’d move but he just watched you letting his tongue glide across his lips, waiting for an answer, you turned away, your ears burning up as if they would fall off at any given moment, mumbling that you were fine. As lunchtime came to an end you realized ignoring him was hard, you wanted to answer him and you did, when he asked about your fish, you told him about your fish. When he asked about your old school, you told him about your school. And when he asked you to walk home together how could you say no?

Making excuses helped, he lives close to your place you’re basically walking on your own you told yourself as he walked by your side. he stopped a couple times to greet the cats roaming the streets and you admired his gentleness and care you could tell he was kind from the moment you met him and he kept proving it, “You’re a deep thinker” he said looking up at you as he pet a cat on the sidewalk, you were probably staring you clear your throat only to nod forcing out a smile,

“it’s okay, i just noticed cause I get like that sometimes you know? Is there something on your mind? I’ll be a shoulder” he stood up looking at you scanning any movement on your face, you smiled looking down, this was hard you thought.

“I..can’t- It’s complicated, thanks for asking though, I really should be on my way now” you wave him bye without giving him a chance to retort. Rushing home your head felt like it could explode and somehow your heart felt the same way, you walked into the living room to your parents working individually on their pc, they looked up at you and welcomed you home, “home” they said, the word made your blood boil you snapped, “You call this home? home is not a house you rent for 5 months till you get bored and completely ignore your child’s life” you storm up to your room slamming the door shut behind you as you finally break into tears, sometimes you wish they were bad parents so you could hate them as much as you hated this lifestyle but they just weren’t fit for parenthood or maybe you weren’t fit for being their child. You knew they loved you they showed it time and time again but you just wanted stability which they couldn’t give you.

A knock on your door mutes your sniffles, you get up from the floor where you had been crying your eyes out, you felt silly crying just cause you wanted friends but you couldn’t help it, you open the door halfway revealing your dad on the other side, “Can I come in?” you push the door wide open letting him in, he sits at your desk and you wait,

“First, i’m sorry, we’re both sorry we thought since you were young you’d always get the chance to make good friends later and now you could just enjoy meeting new people. We didn’t know it would affect you as much so for that we apologize. Your mom is going to look into prolonging our stay here or if you want to go back-“ you rushed over to your dad wrapping your arms around his and he mirrored, “I like it here” you whispered finally feeling at ease.

What you didn’t know then is hurting you now

Over the past couple months you only got closer to Donghyun, you’d stay with him at the store, sit on the floor doing your homework together while his dad took care of the shop, you were in your sophomore year but wanted to go to university so you put in the work, helping your desk mate out when needed. Getting closer also meant your feelings for him going up exponentially, he already had you around his finger since day one even now you barely knew how to act when he looked at when he looked at you a certain way.

The school rooftop became your favorite spot, you’d have lunch there with Donghyun, sneak out of PE class only to end up there, as it became more sacred you started planning your hangouts bringing snacks and card games to while away time, being there with him you wished things could stay that way forever.

“There you go!” he laughed as you finally won a game of UNO against him it had been weeks of him winning nonstop so you were ecstatic literally screaming in his face, he covered your mouth with his hand laughing at your sudden outburst,

“We are still at school y/n” he reminded you bringing you back to your senses you smiled mouthing a sorry before taking your seat beside him, you let your head rest on his shoulder as the cool winter breeze settled in, you enjoyed the feeling but were sensitive to the cold your body shivering with the trees, he grabbed your hand placing a hand warmer in it, he left his hand in yours long enough to get you feeling warm just from the heat your face was exuding, “We should probably head back to class” you said under your breath, he lowered his face to your level for you to repeat, his eyes fixated on your lips till he finally looked up at your eyes. In that split second you convinced yourself this was it he was going to kiss you, his eyes fluttering between your eyes and lips you both inched closer then the bell rang snapping you out of it, you turned away immediately and he got up,

“We should head back now or we’re screwed…” he tried relieving the awkward tension that settled but you couldn’t even look at him the embarrassment was too much and you couldn’t escape him either so you endured it.

The walk home together had never felt more awkward, at least in class you could focus on the teacher, he cleared his throat before speaking, “ You sure are quiet” you looked at him from the corner of your eye trying to ignore the smile creeping up on your face, “You tried to kiss me” you exclaimed watching shock grow on his face as if you betrayed him revealing a deep secret, “That was you y/n I saw you leaning in” now you’re shocked how could he admit to that, the embarrassment started fading away as you stopped in front of him narrowing your eyes as you thought of something to say, “If i wanted to kiss you i would-“ the words came out before you could stop them, his eyebrows were raised like he was daring you,

“Oh really?” he leaned forward to you but you turned around smacking him with your ponytail, you didn’t want to be obvious but at that point he knew, “Obviously i don’t want to” you rolled your eyes walking ahead, he caught up to you stopping you this time you looked at him confused as to what he was plotting, “I do” at the sound of those words you felt his lips on yours, his hands cupping your cheeks your eyes fell shut as you kissed him back tugging on his jacket. The smile on his face as he leaned back sent butterflies to your tummy, like he could keep away from your lips he placed a soft peck on them again.

“Wow you’re perfect” he sighed pushing his hair out of his face, you just stood there stunned, the thing you wanted so badly was so attainable now you didn’t know how to act, —“The wait was so worth it”, you frowned at him

“What were you waiting for?” he let his tongue wet his lips staring at you with that smirk on his face like he could eat you right then and there, you felt like your heart was on the verge of stopping every time it skipped a beat,

“For you, dumbass”

And just as it begun, you saw the end of everything you were living for start seeping through. For almost a year you finally felt carefree like you could live and actually enjoy it, you had someone who needed you and vice versa you felt that all the trials you faced prior to these moments were worth it, just getting to see the smile on Donghyun’s face every morning as you walked over to your desk made it worth it and then you heard the grand announcement from your parents, you had to move back to your mom’s hometown as you grandparents had passed, with all the moving you had never actually been close to your grandparents but you tried to show sympathy and understanding in front of your parents because you knew you couldn’t be mad, you felt it sting in your heart when they announced you’d be leaving in a week. A week.. you thought, a week ago you were with Donghyun planning to go the summer festival in two weeks it’s funny how life makes it’s own plans, you excuse yourself heading directly for your room, your parents knew to leave you space at that moment.

You paced around your room trying to figure out a way out, you couldn’t leave, your whole life was here, in a year you had experienced so much in this city you felt tied to it. The one thought ringing in your head constantly was to call him, call Donghyun, and you wanted to but you knew that if you told him then it would be final you would have to accept that you were parting ways and there was nothing you could do about it, and that was the last thing you wanted.

So you decided on seeing him, and making sure that you spent every second together you would tell him when the day before you left, you hoped he wouldn’t hate you for this. You felt selfish in so many ways during this time, knowing you cared more about a guy you met a year ago more than your own blood made you feel terrible but you couldn’t help it, you still felt sad mostly for your mom who was grieving but the tears only fell when Donghyun was on your mind. In front of the store there he was, you asked him to wear something beige so you could match for the day you had planned something to keep you occupied throughout the day, he placed a soft kiss on your lips the moment you reached him smiling as he pulled back,

“You’re stunning, we’re so couple goals right now” he jokes making you smile holding back a giggle, smiling without thinking about the facts was hard when he was right there being every thing you wanted, “So what’s the plan?” he asks slipping his hand in yours as you started your walk to the nearest bus stop, you glanced at him smiling sheepishly, he nodded to himself getting the message.

“A Fun fair? An arcade? a shopping mall?” he started naming all the places you could possibly be taking his as you sat in the bus, you hit his belly softly but hard enough to make him flinch “Shut up” you snapped, his eyes were smiling with his mouth as he laughed loudly bringing all the attention on the bus to you, he covered his mouth with wide eyes before apologizing to the people, he glanced at you while you shook your head in disapproval.

You finally got off the bus and it was directly in front of you, you looked up at him covering your eyes from the sun as you tried to make out his reaction, “God, I love you” he smiled at you pulling you into a side hug while he placed pecks on the top of your head, “Prepare yourself for a class on sealife, you don’t know what you just signed up for” he tells you as you walk into the aquarium you retort telling him that’s literally what got you interested in him, he raises his eyebrows in shock and you give him a blank stare because it wasn’t news for him, you got your pass scanned and entered the main attraction.

Most of the time you actually weren’t talking you just sat and watched the fish with him, he’d bring up a random fish fact when he wanted to see you smile and explained how he could get a pet octopus if he really wanted to, you nodded at his antics which made him continue feeding the lies,

“Any reason you brought me here? Feels out of place” he mumbled keeping his eyes on the fish, your eyes flickered between him and the tank before clearing your throat, “I can’t randomly take my boyfriend out on a date?” you questioned jokingly watching his reaction carefully, he looked over to you finally staring you down before saying anything, “I’ll take it for now but you better tell me what’s up, I know you y/n, it’s like something is rushing you. i’m not going anywhere” he smiles leaning in to kiss your temple letting you rest there, “i’m not going anywhere” the words rung in your head making you feel unsteady, you couldn’t keep this from him you were in the same situation, neither of you wanted the other to leave, you were supposed to be there for each other.

You pressed your lips against his and kissed him forgetting about all the PDA stuff you hated so much, you kissed him like you were seeing him for the last time, you were going to tell him and you would let yourself cry in his arms because that’s how it goes, he would comfort you and you would comfort him. When you pull away your eyes were puffy and you hadn’t even realized how hard you were crying he looked at you worry painted over his face,

“You’re leaving?” he asked his gaze flickering between your eyes trying to decipher your expression, you nodded avoiding his eyes keeping your head down as you fidgeted with your fingers, he brought himself closer to you and wrapped his arms around you,

“it’s okay, we can make it work” he lifted your chin up wiping your tears away as he cupped your face in his hands, “Life comes with change, we have to accept that and make use of the time we know we have, okay?” you nodded sniffing the tears away, he placed a soft kiss on your lips before leading you to the nearest restroom before you continued your date.

Some worries kept coming up in your mind about Donghyun, you didn’t want him to have to hide how he was feeling to comfort you, you knew all about your past and how much you used to move but neither of you expected it this time so you wondered how he was truly feeling but you wanted to enjoy the day as much as you could, dismissing any thoughts that brought and end to your connection.

Just as you had promised each other you stuck together for the next few days, ignoring the inevitable future that was in store by the end of the week, but on the night before your moving day, he came over to stay overnight, you had spent plenty nights together but this was different you could make out till the sunrise and it wouldn’t change anything so you just let it be, you talk for hours about life and the future planning out how someday you could get back what you lost but a part of you fears these are just words and the end will be the end. “You’ll have Bubbles to remind you of me” he says referring to your fish, you smile reminiscing about the first day you met, you wondered if you would do it all again if you knew it would end this way.

Of course you would.

Sitting on lijeongs lap, making out heavily while grinding against him and hearing his groans so you continue until he cums in his pants 😔😔

Gosh🤭I can imagine him doing that!! His strong hands holding your hips guiding you while kissing you nonstop 😻 him groaning in your mouth then bucking his hips making his big bulge (I know he has a huge cock!) grind on your cunt 🤭

Omg imagine thigh riding with him?! Making you get yourself off on his muscular thighs while either praising you or degrading you?

I’m leaning towards the degrading (bcs I’m a whore) like.. “look at yourself baby…” he’d say looking all cocky 🤭 flexing his leg pushing u to the edge 🫠

When you finally cum he’d probably say something like “such a little slut” or “such a whore. Can’t get enough of me, can you?”🫠

I need him so bad 😭

2 writings for him :)

Inbox is open!!

Hoonie is so adorable 🥺💕

SUNGHOON / ‘ENHYPEN&Hi’ S2 EP. 2

I’m so thankful for Yeonjun’s shoulder

Please someone give this man his children, he needs them.

(I'll give you as many as you want so please come back home Eunseok)

"what's your body count?" texts with riize

w: suggestive

over-stepping.

“but tonight, you belong to me.”

you come to him after breaking with your boyfriend. he’s been waiting for this moment ever since you moved in with him. a moment of vulnerability. a moment for him to overstep a few boundaries. but it’s all to make you feel better. after-all, that’s what he’s here for to make you feel better. but nothing changes. it never does.

song eunseok. ft lee sohee.

angst. smut. no verbal “yes” so dub-con to be safe

your knuckles started to ache, fingers trembling as you gripped onto the doorknob of his room. the sound of his bed creaking and someone elses’ moans slipped under the crack of the door — someone else was in there with him. an intense ringing in your ears and the sudden urge to vomit came crashing over your body just at the mere thought of what you would witness if you opened that door. it had to be a sick joke, it was a sick joke. right? you weren’t hearing what you thought you were hearing — no this isn’t right. this isn’t how it’s supposed to play out. no, he’s supposed to be yours. who else can he possibly have in his bed? how could he do this to you. he told you that he wouldn’t do it again.

sohee — a sweetheart, but also a fuck-ass liar. a cheater who can’t keep his word to save his stupid life. but he’s still a sweetheart.

what a lame gimmick. but how did it get to this?

tonight was an exciting night. a very exciting night. so exciting that it had you seated in front of the vanity in your room, makeup thrown across the surface. clothes tossed around in heaps and music blasting through the enclosed space. you were getting ready to go and see sohee. it had been weeks since the last visit — even though you lived no more than twenty minutes apart. but he said he needed his space here and there.

and who were you to not give that to him?

in the midst of beating your face to perfection, you failed to realize the sound of your creaky bedroom door opening and your roommate, eunseok, sliding in. situating himself into your bed in the process. the alarmingly loud thud of his body meeting your mattress made you whip around in the seat — grasping onto the loose t-shirt that framed your body from shock after realizing what the noise was.

“oh my god, you can’t do that seok.” catching your breath, throwing a makeup brush towards his direction before turning back to face the mirror. remembering that you were using that brush, you just huffed while looking for another one. as you searched, the same object that you used to attack him was being thrown right back at you — striking the back of your head.

getting into his feet, eunseoks’ laughter got closer and closer until he was hovering over you. leaning his body onto the back of your chair, he planted his hands onto the table. scanning the contents before making eye contact with you through the mirror. “what are you dolling up for anyway? i don’t remember you mentioning anything important this week.” his confusion mixed with curiosity lead to his hands grabbing some random blush that you had discarded. examining the product as he waited.

“getting ready to see sohee. he invited me over.” responding in a low tone as you focused on getting your liner to match each other. elbows resting up on the vanity as you tried to keep steady. being so focused on your eyelids that you just barely missed the male rolling his eyes. just barely though. “what are you rolling your eyes for??” questioning him, you placed the pen down, looking at him through the mirror once more. waiting to hear whatever bullshit opinion he has floating around his head.

“come on, you know why.” lowering his chin down onto your head, you stayed silent — waiting for him to further elaborate. sighing, eunseok continued, “he admitted to cheating on you, not just once but multiple times yn. and you’re still so quick to run back to him. and then you come to me begging me to tell you what to do, and every single fucking time i-“ his rant was cut short by the buzzing of your phone. hands darting to pick up the device, sohees’ name glowed on the screen. swiping to open the text, it was almost as if the world came crashing down and bursted into flames. nothing could have prepared you for the moment he would breakup with you over text.

so much for a peaceful day.

pushing yourself from out the the seat, you were out the door before eunseok could even react. throwing on a a pair of beatup af1s and one of eunseoks’ jackets that hung near the door — still in your pajama shorts. fumbling with your car keys as the cold night air hit your body. his words on loop in your mind as you turned on the car.

this isn’t gonna work anymore.

body hot, you darted through the doors of his apartment complex. sweat lining your face as you beelined up to the elevator, heads turning as you rushed through the once peaceful lobby. once at your destination, your movements didn’t slow. only quickening as the pads of your fingers smashed against the elevator button. breath low and heavy, mouth dry and legs weak — you waited for the machine to reach your floor. mechanical doors opening, you pushed your body into the tight space, the judge-mental stares of the recent occupants lingering on your body as you desperately, frantically abused button to the 8th floor. body trembling, you stood in front of the sliding doors.

you looked like a lunatic.

but that was the least of your concerns, all you could think about was his text. the text that sent you spiraling in a matter of seconds. the text that would be the reason you drove through the streets like a loon. he wanted to cut it off, but no. no he can’t do that. he’s yours and you’ll do anything to keep it that way. the ding of the elevator snapped you out from the manic episode, paranoia, you were experiencing. tripping over your own two feet, you sprinted down the corridor — finally reaching apartment 119. feet heavy, you stood idle.

an unsettling feeling flooding your senses. fingers twitching as your eyes burned holes into the wood that you walked through so many times in the past. the door that you were pushed up against after the first date. the door that he shoved your body out of whenever he was upset. the same frame where you sobbed and screamed at him after catching him messing around for the first time.

the door that you always crawled back to.

it all made your heart throb as you twisted the discolored metal. allowing yourself into the space, the strong, nearly sickening smell of cashmere and vanilla made your head spin. the home was dark, but the layout was engraved into your mind — due to spending multiple nights hastily undressing in the pitch black and finding yourself in his room. making way to said room, your feet brushed against a heap of clothing that laid abandoned in the hall. then it hit you, the creaking of his bed-frame and muffled yet ear-splitting moans drowning out the harsh sound of your footsteps hitting his hardwood floor.

holding onto the knob of his room, your heart beat pounded and throbbed in your ears. hot tears getting ready to stream down your puffy cheeks as you listened to the shameless groans that seeped from the cracks of the wood and into your ears — going straight to the deepest depths of your heart and giving the organ a good punch. it was like a slap in the face, this couldn’t be how it ends. no it’s not, you’re just hallucinating.

but you’re not.

a choked out cry of his name gave you whiplash. also giving you the strength you needed to swing open the only thing that was holding you back from the truth. the truth that would inevitably lead to the death of your heart. the truth that would make your breath get stuck in your throat. the sight was like a kick to the gut, staring at the way his hips kept moving even when his face tilted up to meet yours — that sweet smile plastered on his face as his hand was stationed ontop of his latest flings head.

it was as if time had stopped, and you were stuck watching your everything, replace you faster than you could blink. your stomach contracted and ached. legs weakening at the urge to vomit crept up on you before you could even register the feeling in your mind.

stumbling back, your body hit the wall — sending a harsh shockwave down your spine. hands wrapping around your own waist, the option to cry or scream bounced around your mind like a pinball. cheeks hot and puffy, eyes red and swollen, lips parted in pure, raw horror — your body started to hyperventilate instead. blinking away any tears that attempted to escape your irritated and itchy eyes, it was all too much. your balance was fucked — stumbling over nothing, you pushed yourself through his home and out the front door. not bothering to close it as you held onto the wall while trying to find the elevator. it was almost as if you’re whole body was shutting down and the hallway kept getting longer.

head spinning, vision blurred— you finally found the hunk of metal. looking down at your feet, your thumb smashed the button, while your other arm tightened around your body. this whole experience made you sick to your stomach, it was almost as if you could puke there and then. the ding of the elevator making your head snap up. the doors sliding open at an agonizingly slow rate — almost as if it was trying to drag out the torture that you were feeling. as you dragged yourself into the elevator, the echo of your name rang out. he was coming and he was moving quick. desperately hitting the lobby button, your body slid down the wall when the doors closed and you started to descend onto the lower floors.

maybe eunseok was right, he won’t change.

dragging yourself through the now empty lobby, all you wanted to do was curl up and die. but it was bound to happen and in all honesty — it was your fault for being him. over and over again, he would lie and you would believe him. falling back into the same trap, that same cycle of misery. you just wanted to believe he would change.

because how can the sweetest boy you know, be one of the sickest people to ever exist?

leaning back in your drivers seat, your face was covered in tears and your balled up fist repeatedly attacked the flesh of your thighs. the skin bruising with every hit, voice cracking with each staggered breath you took in. lips raw from your teeth sinking into them in weak attempts to hold back hiccups.

eunseok sat waiting in the living room, watching as your little dot on his map got closer to your shared apartment. leaning into the cushions of the couch, he couldn’t help but laugh at the situation. the sight of you rushing out to try and salvage a relationship that should have been scrapped months ago. he would never say it to your face, bur he truly found you pathetic — a pretty girl who was too trusting. too afraid of losing people who only brought her down. a girl who yearns for the slightest bit of affection, comfort, love. glancing back down at the device, your little blue dot was right outside the door. probably trying to collect yourself before having to face eunseok again.

taking it upon himself, eunseok walked over to the door, pulling it open to be met with a startled you. eyes glossed over, eyeliner running down your face, bottom lip tucked under your teeth — it was a sight straight from a 80s romance novel. eyes scanning your body, his gaze lingered on the way your lips quivered ever so slightly.

expanding his arms, your body came crashing into his. clawing onto his shoulders while his arms held onto your waist. leading you back into the home, closing the door in the process. eunseok allowed you to weep and breakdown into him. swaying side to side in an attempt to soothe your mind — it almost made him feel bad for you. but how could he when all he did was tell you how you should, needed to leave him. being the mediator in your life was getting exhausting, and he truly didn’t know how much more he could put up with.

pulling away, he took the time to swipe at any tears that lingered. then leading you into your room. only for you two to stand there. back turned to him, you slowly glanced over your shoulder to stare at him. so many words being spoken through a simple gesture — until was now leading you to his. there, you waited until he was seated. laying your head in his lap, curling up into a ball as his fingers brushed loose strands of hair from your face. the sound of cars zooming below his cracked open window and the dim city lights leaking into the dark room, past the partly opened curtains. your shallow breathing paired with sniffles filling whatever empty space remained. it

“what did i tell you?” brushing his fingers over your warm cheeks, it came to no surprise when you started rambling incoherent and unfinished sentences, trying to defend yourself. sitting up in front of the male, you could feel yourself get worked up all over again. the waterworks starting up again as you started gasping for air as if it was getting forcefully sucked from out of your chest with every sentence. “i thought he would change, i really did.” face scrunched up in discomfort, eunseok pulled you onto his lap — head falling into the crook of his neck as he massaged your back. continuing to spew out senseless sentences that fell onto deaf ears. the feeling of your tears soaking his shirt for the second, but not the last, time tonight. hooking your arms around his neck in an attempt to stabilize yourself, eunseok moved his hands down to your hips. pushing them down ever so slightly. if you weren’t a mess, it would have been obvious what he was trying to do.

“it’s okay, i got you.” shifting beneath you, the now painfully obvious tent of his shorts rubbed against your thigh. lifting your head, there was a weird tension. attempting to slide off his lap, eunseoks grip only tightened. “let me help you, you’ll feel so much better afterwards, m’kay?” whispering into your ear, he pushed your body down onto his bed. hovering over above you for a moment before crashing his lips down onto yours. nipping and tugging at the already raw skin while his hands forced down your shorts, slipping them all your legs and onto his floor. hands on either side of your head, all you could physically do was let him undress your lower half, too weak from hysteria to even attempt to move.

removing himself from your body, eunseok got off the bed. standing on the side, he gripped onto your ankles — dragging your body to the edge and standing in between them. but he couldn’t help but watch, stare at the way your chest slowly moved up and down with each shaky breath. the way you shifted and writhed under his touch. it all went straight to his dick.

surprising, right? no? ok.

tugging down at his shorts, he pulled them down just enough for his dick to spring up. placing a hand onto your hip, eunseok used his other to drag his tip against your panties. leaving a wet-patch in its wake. a lazy smile on his lips as he teased and teased. slapping your thinly clothed cunt with his length. sliding his other hand down, he pushed the fabric aside, lining himself up with your heat.

“you’re gonna feel so much better, just let me do all the work.” pushing himself past your folds, the ache that you once had was replaced with a slight pain. it had been awhile since you even thought of having sex, refraining from such activities with the knowledge of sohees frequent relations. holding onto your ankles, eunseok folded your legs until they were touching your chest, giving himself the view that he had been longing to see. taking in the sight of you sucking him back in every time he pulled out. ignoring the way you called his name, telling him it was too much.

“you’ll adjust, just take it.” with every word, eunseok snipped his lips against your ass. causing a string of hoarse moans and whine leaving your lips. he was the silent type, but it didn’t mean he wasn’t losing his mind. collecting his composure, he continued speaking you through it, “i’m just here to make you feel better, you’re doing so well baby.” but you didn’t feel better, yeah you felt good. but you couldn’t help that your heart still longed for someone who didn’t care for you, while someone else was between your thighs.

maybe he’ll pick up the phone once this is over.

yana here- hi. heh. the way this took me barely a full day to finish and i thought it would take like 3. the idea was lingering in my mind all week, i started writing it at like 3PM yesterday, then stopped. continued at like 11 and finished right now! it’s currently 4PM. i hope you liked it, idk i liked writing it. kinda mad at myself for making sohee such a bitch but then its hot so idc. also, another abrupt ending because i like the idea of not finishing what i started. dont get mad at me or i’ll cry.